Persevero
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Almost a decade ago I was heavily addicted to a game called Warcraft III: The Frozen Throne. Even though I was average at best, I watched tons of vids and replays of the world's best players, participated in 3 different online communities that discussed the game, constantly tried to make up my own strategies and predict where the metagame was going, etc. It was interfering with my studies and the little social life I had - it was rare for me to avoid social encounters, but very often I would just sort of "phase out" to mentally focus on the game again. Then the communities started to die down, newer games came out and I was forcing myself to focus more on my studies. The game was almost replaced with another one (Dawn of War I), but for a variety of reasons (including depression) it didn't grip me as hard.
It came to a complete stop when Dawn of War II came out. I hated the game. They changed almost all of what I liked about the first one. Ironically I would have probably liked it as a side thing if it weren't called "Dawn of War II". But it was. At the time this killed my enthusiasm for games of the genre.
Anybody who's seen my posts in the entertainment forum may know I still play and prefer strategy games. But the passion is a fragment of what it was, and nothing in my adult life has managed to bring that sort of passion back. There are plenty of things I like doing, but I don't obsess over them. On the plus side I'm usually a lot more attentive in social situations now and have "replaced" the obsession with what I consider to be useful hobbies: Reading into interesting articles and doing more exercise, for example.
Yet when that enthusiasm ended, it ended hard. I didn't know what to do with myself. I had all this free time and free space in my mind that I could be using but didn't. I just loafed around the house feeling empty and possibly further depressed than what I already was (it was hard to tell) and I wasn't engaging more with people than before (that took a while). I spent a lot of time on filler activities, like "information binges" and told myself I'd actually do something when I felt entertained, which never really happened.
Now I have heard this described as a "hangover" and "a part of growing up". But I know a lot of adults who have passions, who live for their hobbies. The luckiest of them even get paid for indulging in their interest as a job!
There are a lot of symptoms I don't share with most ASD folks, like hypersensitivities and stims. I want to know in what ways my "hangover" is different from your special interest being taken away from you.
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Almost a decade ago I was heavily addicted to a game called Warcraft III: The Frozen Throne. Even though I was average at best, I watched tons of vids and replays of the world's best players, participated in 3 different online communities that discussed the game, constantly tried to make up my own strategies and predict where the metagame was going, etc. It was interfering with my studies and the little social life I had - it was rare for me to avoid social encounters, but very often I would just sort of "phase out" to mentally focus on the game again. Then the communities started to die down, newer games came out and I was forcing myself to focus more on my studies. The game was almost replaced with another one (Dawn of War I), but for a variety of reasons (including depression) it didn't grip me as hard.
It came to a complete stop when Dawn of War II came out. I hated the game. They changed almost all of what I liked about the first one. Ironically I would have probably liked it as a side thing if it weren't called "Dawn of War II". But it was. At the time this killed my enthusiasm for games of the genre.
Anybody who's seen my posts in the entertainment forum may know I still play and prefer strategy games. But the passion is a fragment of what it was, and nothing in my adult life has managed to bring that sort of passion back. There are plenty of things I like doing, but I don't obsess over them. On the plus side I'm usually a lot more attentive in social situations now and have "replaced" the obsession with what I consider to be useful hobbies: Reading into interesting articles and doing more exercise, for example.
Yet when that enthusiasm ended, it ended hard. I didn't know what to do with myself. I had all this free time and free space in my mind that I could be using but didn't. I just loafed around the house feeling empty and possibly further depressed than what I already was (it was hard to tell) and I wasn't engaging more with people than before (that took a while). I spent a lot of time on filler activities, like "information binges" and told myself I'd actually do something when I felt entertained, which never really happened.
Now I have heard this described as a "hangover" and "a part of growing up". But I know a lot of adults who have passions, who live for their hobbies. The luckiest of them even get paid for indulging in their interest as a job!
There are a lot of symptoms I don't share with most ASD folks, like hypersensitivities and stims. I want to know in what ways my "hangover" is different from your special interest being taken away from you.
Underlined what's actually important in the post as a summary.
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