Although I have never been in foster care or been adopted, I had no choice but to cut off any association with my "parents" due to their sheer lack of parenting skills, for want of a better word. There is a lot more to say, but this is not about me and thus, I won't go on!
3 of my siblings were put into care, 2 fostered and 1 adoption. The 2 who were fostered, had it rough. My sister was forced to live with this couple, whom she did not feel comfortable with, and on the day of her being placed with them, she was so frightened that she clung to me and all I could do, was watch in despair as they ie the social services, dragged her out of bed and her begging me to stop them, but as much as I tried, I was pushed aside. She was out of there within a week, due to him being a child molester. She herself, had been molested by our pedophile father!
My youngest sister was 7, when she went into foster care and around a year later, was adopted. I tried to gain contact with her, but when she was discovered, she has chosen to have nothing to do with me, although got social services to reassure me that she did not hold me responsible for her being in care, anymore. Her mother was allowed to write to her and blamed me for everything and thus, my sister refused to have anything to do with me, believing it was my fault.
My brother who was fostered out, was treated awfully and forced to stay with this other foster teen who was rather proud of his ability to share how he sexually abused children, he baby sat for!!!
So, I truly feel for you Penguin and probably why, I feel a connection with you, ie I feel that I must answer your questions!
To be honest, my husband cannot have children and now, since I have found out I am aspergic, I am relieved that I am not a mother. Oh and we tried to adopt, but where turned down, due to our faith.
There are many parents out there, that do not deserve this amazing miracle and it makes my heart cry when I read how they abuse their offspring.
I would not want to bring a child into this world, knowing that they could well suffer how I suffer!