A black cloud of depression and anxiety descended on me over a decade ago.
Before this drugs was what kept me going.
I did not discover I had artistic talent until my 30s and I attended an evening class.
My artist ex-boyfriend, at the time bought me a black leather case to put my artwork in. This black leather case has not been open for quite some time.
Sadly my best photo realistic drawings and paintings I’ve been lost forever but I have kept some art. The black case has been gathering dust.
I was talking about art The other day and was asked to show some but I could not face looking in black leather case with my outworking so I said I had none.
The only person that I have done in the last several years shows how I have deteriorated due to lack of practice. This was a doodle.
I attended an online mental health support group where activities are included and somehow I found myself promising I would try doing some art. I suddenly remembered I had The doodle mentioned above down between the Settee and the wall which I got out and showed the group members via zoom.
The group soon to lift my mood and I do not want today to end because insomniac fitful sleep followed by dark thoughts I’m starting the day with fear and dread follows.
I have uploaded 10 pieces and will start a new thread to upload three more and a poem about depression which I wrote years ago as I like poetry.
I don’t think I could’ve done this any other day as it would’ve made me cry probably.
A couple I know but me and nice set of felt tip pens for Christmas and I was so low I refused them but they refused to take them back.
I hope my mood is buoyant enough to do some art for next thursdays group.
PS I am sorry for the random capitals I am in bed on my iPad using speech to text and I have not figured out why certain words start with a capital and I don’t want them to but I will eventually. Anyway he is the pictures.
Before this drugs was what kept me going.
I did not discover I had artistic talent until my 30s and I attended an evening class.
My artist ex-boyfriend, at the time bought me a black leather case to put my artwork in. This black leather case has not been open for quite some time.
Sadly my best photo realistic drawings and paintings I’ve been lost forever but I have kept some art. The black case has been gathering dust.
I was talking about art The other day and was asked to show some but I could not face looking in black leather case with my outworking so I said I had none.
The only person that I have done in the last several years shows how I have deteriorated due to lack of practice. This was a doodle.
I attended an online mental health support group where activities are included and somehow I found myself promising I would try doing some art. I suddenly remembered I had The doodle mentioned above down between the Settee and the wall which I got out and showed the group members via zoom.
The group soon to lift my mood and I do not want today to end because insomniac fitful sleep followed by dark thoughts I’m starting the day with fear and dread follows.
I have uploaded 10 pieces and will start a new thread to upload three more and a poem about depression which I wrote years ago as I like poetry.
I don’t think I could’ve done this any other day as it would’ve made me cry probably.
A couple I know but me and nice set of felt tip pens for Christmas and I was so low I refused them but they refused to take them back.
I hope my mood is buoyant enough to do some art for next thursdays group.
PS I am sorry for the random capitals I am in bed on my iPad using speech to text and I have not figured out why certain words start with a capital and I don’t want them to but I will eventually. Anyway he is the pictures.
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