I am so thankful that I can take something natural to help calm my nerves. I had planned on not taking anything, for I feel it is best for the pyschiatrist to see me as authentic as possible, rather than me putting a sense of: I am not mad.
I think I am scared of the unknown and also, because it is all in another language and so, that is added to the worry that I won't be able to understand. My husband will be there because of this issue, but I still worry that she will just say: oh, there is nothing wrong with you; but I worry that she will say: you need to be hospitalised, although that is just a an active imagination, considering I have not felt suicidal for years.
I am going because I sense that if I can be officialised with chronic social phobia, that it might help me to feel a little less, well, useless. When asked what I do with my day, I tend to say: if you want to sleep, settle back and listen, because you will soon fall asleep ie my day to day is so boring that it could make an insominac fall asleep, which I guess, makes me useful for something
I HATE the notion of being scrutinized and well, that is what it is all about and thus, I would so dearly love to cancel. An emotional wreck and hate that lack of control.
All because of one stupid meeting with a potential positive out come!


I think I am scared of the unknown and also, because it is all in another language and so, that is added to the worry that I won't be able to understand. My husband will be there because of this issue, but I still worry that she will just say: oh, there is nothing wrong with you; but I worry that she will say: you need to be hospitalised, although that is just a an active imagination, considering I have not felt suicidal for years.
I am going because I sense that if I can be officialised with chronic social phobia, that it might help me to feel a little less, well, useless. When asked what I do with my day, I tend to say: if you want to sleep, settle back and listen, because you will soon fall asleep ie my day to day is so boring that it could make an insominac fall asleep, which I guess, makes me useful for something

I HATE the notion of being scrutinized and well, that is what it is all about and thus, I would so dearly love to cancel. An emotional wreck and hate that lack of control.
All because of one stupid meeting with a potential positive out come!


