I wanted to see if other processed emotions relatively similar to how I process them. At night, after my wife and son have gone to bed, I usually stay up for a while and think about the day and let my mind cool down. Typically throughout the day I do not elicit emotions internally, however, at night they seem to catch up to me and I feel very deeply for my wife and son. Obviously, I do love my wife and son during the day, but I don't get those feelings of deep love until night time. I find this frustrating at times because at night I recall situations where it would have been nice to be able to provide these feeling towards my wife. Most of the time during the day, if my wife shows these emotions, I get frustrated because it messes with my routine (something I am working on). Anybody else experience this?
It is similar but a little different for me.
I seem to process emotions like there a firewall, in computer terms. It's like something can happen and I'll think something like "Well, ok, how would I feel about this? Would I be sad? Ok, I think it would make me sad. Do I want to feel sad right now? No, I need to finish whatever I'm working on first, I'm not really interested in feeling sad right now. I'll see if I still think it is worth being sad later, but for now... *emotional packet rejected*" Then, later on, when I'm not so busy, I'll go over it, and think "There's nothing much going on right now, I can be sad, until *insert some movie / tv show* comes on and then I need to go to sleep."
Or sometimes later on in the day after I was faced with an unfamiliar scenario: "How should I respond to that? That should have made me mad. Ok, next time something like that happens, I will be mad."
Whatever it is, I will generally mill over it at night, or before I go to sleep, anyway.
Sometimes this has made me wonder if I "feel" quite the same as others do. I mean, is it really a genuine emotion if you first have to decide on what it will be, and then whether or not you feel it and for how long? I have talked to other people who have said they can "ignore" the way they feel, but this seems different, like it is being filtered before it even gets to the executing centers of my brain.