Hi,
My name's Marshall and I'm 23 years old. For a couple years I've always thought I might have aspergers. My story is very similar to those I've read. Growing up I had very little friends, I would prefer to be alone and do things my way, and I always felt a bit different and out of place. And yes, I'm very socially inept.
Currently, my only friends are my parents and my 2 siblings, and I don't care to go out and make friends. I have had depression/suicidal thoughts since middle school, attempted suicide once(and never again), I've been hospitalized and put on suicide watch, and I've been in all sorts of mental health programs.
With that out of the way, I can honestly say I don't get depressed like I used to, but every now and then I do get very low, the difference is I have the ability to overcome it.
Now, onto my concern. About a year ago I went to my therapist and asked him if I might have aspergers, and he just laughed. So he not only thinks I don't, but he thinks there's not even a chance I might have it. Now he is a good guy, but it does bother me that he wouldn't even consider it. My guess is that one of the symptoms is a lack of coordination and I have good coordination. I even played quarterback for a year in college. I know, not what you'd expect from someone with aspergers, but in all honesty, I hated football and the only reason I did it was to make my father proud and I thought it would make people like me. I did however enjoy the feeling of throwing a tight spiral and scoring, but I hated being the leader and I was not your typical douchebag jock. Most of my high school years was spent playing video games alone in my room, which is where I was the happiest. And even though I have decent coordination, I am also very clumsy, I trip a lot and I fall down stairs sometimes, so make of that what you will.
I would like to approach my therapist again, but I would like some feedback first and maybe some tips on how to bring it up in conversation.
I've always thought something was wrong with me and it has been driving me mad trying to figure out what it is. Maybe I'm just a depressed, suicidal, socially awkward person, but doesn't there have to be some reason behind it like child abuse, trauma, autism, etc. These things don't just appear out of nowhere, yet I have no explanation for why I am the way I am. It's extremely frustrating.
Anyways, I hope someone reads this. If not I will probably make a shorter, more to the point post later. Thank you for reading and I look forward to your replies!
My name's Marshall and I'm 23 years old. For a couple years I've always thought I might have aspergers. My story is very similar to those I've read. Growing up I had very little friends, I would prefer to be alone and do things my way, and I always felt a bit different and out of place. And yes, I'm very socially inept.
Currently, my only friends are my parents and my 2 siblings, and I don't care to go out and make friends. I have had depression/suicidal thoughts since middle school, attempted suicide once(and never again), I've been hospitalized and put on suicide watch, and I've been in all sorts of mental health programs.
With that out of the way, I can honestly say I don't get depressed like I used to, but every now and then I do get very low, the difference is I have the ability to overcome it.
Now, onto my concern. About a year ago I went to my therapist and asked him if I might have aspergers, and he just laughed. So he not only thinks I don't, but he thinks there's not even a chance I might have it. Now he is a good guy, but it does bother me that he wouldn't even consider it. My guess is that one of the symptoms is a lack of coordination and I have good coordination. I even played quarterback for a year in college. I know, not what you'd expect from someone with aspergers, but in all honesty, I hated football and the only reason I did it was to make my father proud and I thought it would make people like me. I did however enjoy the feeling of throwing a tight spiral and scoring, but I hated being the leader and I was not your typical douchebag jock. Most of my high school years was spent playing video games alone in my room, which is where I was the happiest. And even though I have decent coordination, I am also very clumsy, I trip a lot and I fall down stairs sometimes, so make of that what you will.
I would like to approach my therapist again, but I would like some feedback first and maybe some tips on how to bring it up in conversation.
I've always thought something was wrong with me and it has been driving me mad trying to figure out what it is. Maybe I'm just a depressed, suicidal, socially awkward person, but doesn't there have to be some reason behind it like child abuse, trauma, autism, etc. These things don't just appear out of nowhere, yet I have no explanation for why I am the way I am. It's extremely frustrating.
Anyways, I hope someone reads this. If not I will probably make a shorter, more to the point post later. Thank you for reading and I look forward to your replies!