Unexpected_who_me?
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Hello.
A week ago I had an accountability meeting at work (corporate) and after that out of nowhere I heard myself saying "I must be autistic!" - I was fed up with the 1-2 months anxiety before the meeting and the sweating before and during the zoom call, while the rest of 15 people had no trouble and seem to enjoy it.
My daughter who studies psychology heard me and sent me the AQ test - I scored 37/50. Everybody else at home scored <17.
This opened up a whole new world for me and I'm still baffled. So many things from my childhood make sense now, even my divorce, etc.
One thing Im still researching is why I hate so much my job - it is now work from home, I have a nice boss (and boss of boss) who never pressure me, I make good money that I cannot make otherwise and when I tell this to my 'friends' in corporate they all say 'are you stupid? stick to it!'. Yet I cannot wait to "retire" - to go on long walks, sit for hours to watch the leaves move in the wind, read, write, cook, travel a bit. I save all $$ I can and follow the FIRE movement (financial independence retire early).
For me it seems to be life and death to get out of corporate ASAP...still saving for another year or so until I have enough for a lean/frugal life in Mexico where we plan to go (cheaper).
What is is about autism and corporate - I used to think that everyone has anxiety in big meetings (telling myself "just shut up, wussie!"), everyone's head hurts when pulled in too many directions at one time (emails, IMs,3-4 projects at a time etc)...
I just feel like I cannot breathe, forget about thriving, in this type of job - but my financial situation is thriving when I'm in it. I'm a math quant/computer science.(Hated math but I was so good at it and my dad was an engineering professor).
Thanks for listening to this long rant.
A week ago I had an accountability meeting at work (corporate) and after that out of nowhere I heard myself saying "I must be autistic!" - I was fed up with the 1-2 months anxiety before the meeting and the sweating before and during the zoom call, while the rest of 15 people had no trouble and seem to enjoy it.
My daughter who studies psychology heard me and sent me the AQ test - I scored 37/50. Everybody else at home scored <17.
This opened up a whole new world for me and I'm still baffled. So many things from my childhood make sense now, even my divorce, etc.
One thing Im still researching is why I hate so much my job - it is now work from home, I have a nice boss (and boss of boss) who never pressure me, I make good money that I cannot make otherwise and when I tell this to my 'friends' in corporate they all say 'are you stupid? stick to it!'. Yet I cannot wait to "retire" - to go on long walks, sit for hours to watch the leaves move in the wind, read, write, cook, travel a bit. I save all $$ I can and follow the FIRE movement (financial independence retire early).
For me it seems to be life and death to get out of corporate ASAP...still saving for another year or so until I have enough for a lean/frugal life in Mexico where we plan to go (cheaper).
What is is about autism and corporate - I used to think that everyone has anxiety in big meetings (telling myself "just shut up, wussie!"), everyone's head hurts when pulled in too many directions at one time (emails, IMs,3-4 projects at a time etc)...
I just feel like I cannot breathe, forget about thriving, in this type of job - but my financial situation is thriving when I'm in it. I'm a math quant/computer science.(Hated math but I was so good at it and my dad was an engineering professor).
Thanks for listening to this long rant.