Hi all,
I am a 40 year Australian man who was diagnosed with ASD level 1 about 4 years ago, and at the beginning of this year I was also diagnosed with ADD.
I consider myself to be a highly moral and empathetic individual, but no one ever seems to like me and I never could figure out why. I would start a job and excel at it, several months later I would pretty much no more than everyone around me, about my and usually their jobs as well. This ultimately leads to me offending them because I always run into issues where the people above me are doing something incorrectly and I discover the correct way to do it (damn hyperfocus) and then I'm stuck at a point, where if I say nothing I am either now knowingly acting unlawfully or unethically, and if I say something I am undermining the authority and ego of those above me, which leads them to see me as a threat and I ultimately get pushed out of my job.
This has been the case all my life. The longest job I have ever held in one place is 2 years. I have 2 undergraduate degrees and a master's of engineering but now I can't really use any because I've not been able to gain enough experience and I'm effectively at the graduate level because I keep getting fired and having to find jobs usually whatever I can get so my kids and wife don't starve.
Life is so difficult for me. I am incredibly smart, honest and loyal, given the opportunity I could do anything I put my mind to, except get along with people. What seems to be so hard for me is that if someone proves me wrong, I accept it and use that information to make better decisions. If I prove someone wrong, I get bullied, abused and pushed out. I've tried to take the low road and ignore errors when I find them but this just eats me up and I become so depressed and anxious I can't function.
This disability is the worst curse any human could have. I look so normal, I have great charisma for a short period but unsustained, I am smart, and for the most part I look, appear and act normal. But underneath I have this black and white perspective, logical, and unwavering.
On top of that because I am so hyperfocus at work, I end up spending too much money on the new house we are building, I miss calculate our budget and forget to allow for things and put us in debt, I buy more expensive items because my brain can tg accept anything other than the one I wanted. I am in debt, I can't keep a job, I have no friends except for my family and I am truly the nicest, honest and empathetic person you will meet. I just can't get life right.
I am a 40 year Australian man who was diagnosed with ASD level 1 about 4 years ago, and at the beginning of this year I was also diagnosed with ADD.
I consider myself to be a highly moral and empathetic individual, but no one ever seems to like me and I never could figure out why. I would start a job and excel at it, several months later I would pretty much no more than everyone around me, about my and usually their jobs as well. This ultimately leads to me offending them because I always run into issues where the people above me are doing something incorrectly and I discover the correct way to do it (damn hyperfocus) and then I'm stuck at a point, where if I say nothing I am either now knowingly acting unlawfully or unethically, and if I say something I am undermining the authority and ego of those above me, which leads them to see me as a threat and I ultimately get pushed out of my job.
This has been the case all my life. The longest job I have ever held in one place is 2 years. I have 2 undergraduate degrees and a master's of engineering but now I can't really use any because I've not been able to gain enough experience and I'm effectively at the graduate level because I keep getting fired and having to find jobs usually whatever I can get so my kids and wife don't starve.
Life is so difficult for me. I am incredibly smart, honest and loyal, given the opportunity I could do anything I put my mind to, except get along with people. What seems to be so hard for me is that if someone proves me wrong, I accept it and use that information to make better decisions. If I prove someone wrong, I get bullied, abused and pushed out. I've tried to take the low road and ignore errors when I find them but this just eats me up and I become so depressed and anxious I can't function.
This disability is the worst curse any human could have. I look so normal, I have great charisma for a short period but unsustained, I am smart, and for the most part I look, appear and act normal. But underneath I have this black and white perspective, logical, and unwavering.
On top of that because I am so hyperfocus at work, I end up spending too much money on the new house we are building, I miss calculate our budget and forget to allow for things and put us in debt, I buy more expensive items because my brain can tg accept anything other than the one I wanted. I am in debt, I can't keep a job, I have no friends except for my family and I am truly the nicest, honest and empathetic person you will meet. I just can't get life right.