Heads up - it’s a long one lol
Approx 5-7 min read.
The first part is me venting .
The question is at the bottom
As those of you who have gotten to know me recently already know, the last little while has been extremely tough for me. Mental & physical health issues .. so much going on. In Canada we have a virtual mental health clinic called Easecare. It is covered by health care and claims to have psychiatrist and doctors focused on mental health.
This doctor is who did the testing with me for autism and adhd . He told me I score extremely high for autism and it is likely adhd but the score was barely above average. Because he isn’t familiar with autism & there’s a 10 month wait for a psychiatrist with their company I asked that they fax my information to my new family doctor. My new family doctor is very kind, but I didn’t want to also bring up mental health (there’s a lot to keep track of with me at the moment) anyways - the fax with information at least helps them get an idea before I explain- especially since I struggle to communicate everything I want to say in 2 way conversation.
My doctor is on holidays for 3 weeks so I made an appointment to see the female doctor there. I called two days before to let them know I would need to talk to them about my mental health / the fax they recieved, as well as my migraines. (Which I was in hospital for in the past 2 weeks & had to go for an emergency eye appointment)
I asked if extra time needs to be allocated, they said don’t worry. I get along with the girls at the front desk and my regular doctor quite well.
My appointment was at 3:15… the first half hour I waited, a little girl was sitting on my lap while her mom was feeding the baby. I kept the 3 year old occupied & didnt mind . I do love children very much. Then they went in for their appointment & Anna, the front desk girl (MOA) brought me to one of the rooms a little while after that. The 3 year old had a really bad scrape on her face , im not sure if that’s why she was seeing the doctor, but the doctor checked her and the 3 year old girl screamed and cried in pain. This made me really upset to listen to from the other room. I could feel she was hurting and wanted to go home. I stimmed on my sorting/puzzle game and tried to ignore the crying (I forgot my AirPods
) and then the bright ass light starts flickering . I think in my head *if this is someone saying hello- forget it.. not in the mood* (lol ) it flickered 3 times , then stopped. Now I’ve been in this room for at least 30 minutes by this time. I went outside to get air and then asked Anna if I can wait in the waiting room instead until it’s my turn. (The doc offices are all white, harsh lighting and no windows & they kept closing the door. I didn’t want it closed : i feel almost closterphobic with it closed. ) at least the waiting room has windows and is open.
Finally the doctor was ready to see me at 4:15pm. I was very nervous that I’d leave things out or get flustered . Plus I was already a little on edge. The doctor had a leg scooter and an air cast. She had broken her toes *eye roll* I’m sorry I’m not being sympathetic but forget her.
I told her how my mental health has been and how I’m apparently scoring at a level 2 & wonder if she can refer me somewhere . She says there is no such thing & I need to pay the money required privately . I showed her the place that @VictorR graciously sent to me & she said she would look into it and see if she can send a referral. FINE, great ! Really all I ask for on that front.
Then I brought up my migraines & asked if I could get a prescription for Botox. I’ll copy and paste my text to my best friend so it’s easier for me :
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I saw the other doctor and I left crying she was getting upset with me . I asked if she can give me a prescription for Botox and she refused because she can’t inject me. I asked can she give me the prescription &I can find someone who does it (Even some cosmetic Botox ppl can do it with a prescription .. I didn’t say that tho) she is in a leg cast and a scooter thing and was 1.5 hours late seeing me and just yelled at me. Said WHY WOULD I GIVE YOU A BOTOX ? Wait until you see your neurologist . I started to get emotional and said I can’t wait till March I’ve been suffering a lot. She said “I won’t do this for you and you need to stop pushing me. Why would I give you Botox prescriptions if I can’t inject you ? Does that seem smart ? I don’t think so!!!! If you’ve had it before, go some place else because I am not helping you with this. “
I just didn’t get why she wouldn’t write the petscription I was trying to understand .
I told her to please not get so upset with me I’m very sensitive and she said if I don’t like the way she does things to wait for Dr. Moses to come back.
The doctor I see is very kind and nothing like that. I’m too sensitive to handle ppl getting upset with me like that. So now I’ll have to go to another place that is pretty far away and try to do it there. It’s so frustrating.
Physio is next door they put me in early so I can lay on the bed and relax and calm down.

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I left bawling my eyes out. When I cry I sort of hyperventilate. Like I do this breathing thing idk how to explain. It’s hard. The girls at physio (luckily right next door) calmed me down, except one was trying to hug me and I just sat there frozen. Once I have my diagnosis I think I’ll be more confident to tell ppl when I don’t want hugs …I’m worried to hurt ppls feelings and it makes me uncomfortable even saying it especially if I’m already upset.
Anyways , I hope she looks into the referral at least. I’m attaching a photo of her. She even looks mean! She knew I’ve been suicidal earlier this month and going through a diagnosis process , was an hour late and didn’t even acknowledge that and STILL chose to treat me like crap *insert eeyore meme here *
Thanks for letting me vent.
*****Ok now to the question - do any of you have a behavioural aide or have a paid support person that can help you and come to appointments and help you with difficult tasks like government forms etc etc etc? I really need help . I’m curious if you do & what that looks like. I won’t give up on making this happen.. (the official diagnosis part) & now that I’m learning so much I see how much help I’ve needed and didn’t even know for so so long. My back tooth is nearly cracked in half and I can’t go into the dentist. I tried and left after the freezing freaking out because of all the noises and her hands inside my mouth . There are places that offer sedation but I’m really low on. Money right now due to a few health factors. I’m so frustrated and feel defeated today. I won’t give up trying to advocate for myself but like this is not the first time I’ve left an appointment bawling my eyes out
Getting the assessment helps me to get financial assistance , maybe I can get some type of paid support person .. idk.
Sigh so my question : those who don’t have family to help and really need it- do you have a aide or some sort of paid helper person that can help you to communicate and manage things ? *******
Approx 5-7 min read.
The first part is me venting .
The question is at the bottom
As those of you who have gotten to know me recently already know, the last little while has been extremely tough for me. Mental & physical health issues .. so much going on. In Canada we have a virtual mental health clinic called Easecare. It is covered by health care and claims to have psychiatrist and doctors focused on mental health.
This doctor is who did the testing with me for autism and adhd . He told me I score extremely high for autism and it is likely adhd but the score was barely above average. Because he isn’t familiar with autism & there’s a 10 month wait for a psychiatrist with their company I asked that they fax my information to my new family doctor. My new family doctor is very kind, but I didn’t want to also bring up mental health (there’s a lot to keep track of with me at the moment) anyways - the fax with information at least helps them get an idea before I explain- especially since I struggle to communicate everything I want to say in 2 way conversation.
My doctor is on holidays for 3 weeks so I made an appointment to see the female doctor there. I called two days before to let them know I would need to talk to them about my mental health / the fax they recieved, as well as my migraines. (Which I was in hospital for in the past 2 weeks & had to go for an emergency eye appointment)
I asked if extra time needs to be allocated, they said don’t worry. I get along with the girls at the front desk and my regular doctor quite well.
My appointment was at 3:15… the first half hour I waited, a little girl was sitting on my lap while her mom was feeding the baby. I kept the 3 year old occupied & didnt mind . I do love children very much. Then they went in for their appointment & Anna, the front desk girl (MOA) brought me to one of the rooms a little while after that. The 3 year old had a really bad scrape on her face , im not sure if that’s why she was seeing the doctor, but the doctor checked her and the 3 year old girl screamed and cried in pain. This made me really upset to listen to from the other room. I could feel she was hurting and wanted to go home. I stimmed on my sorting/puzzle game and tried to ignore the crying (I forgot my AirPods

Finally the doctor was ready to see me at 4:15pm. I was very nervous that I’d leave things out or get flustered . Plus I was already a little on edge. The doctor had a leg scooter and an air cast. She had broken her toes *eye roll* I’m sorry I’m not being sympathetic but forget her.
I told her how my mental health has been and how I’m apparently scoring at a level 2 & wonder if she can refer me somewhere . She says there is no such thing & I need to pay the money required privately . I showed her the place that @VictorR graciously sent to me & she said she would look into it and see if she can send a referral. FINE, great ! Really all I ask for on that front.
Then I brought up my migraines & asked if I could get a prescription for Botox. I’ll copy and paste my text to my best friend so it’s easier for me :
*********************
I saw the other doctor and I left crying she was getting upset with me . I asked if she can give me a prescription for Botox and she refused because she can’t inject me. I asked can she give me the prescription &I can find someone who does it (Even some cosmetic Botox ppl can do it with a prescription .. I didn’t say that tho) she is in a leg cast and a scooter thing and was 1.5 hours late seeing me and just yelled at me. Said WHY WOULD I GIVE YOU A BOTOX ? Wait until you see your neurologist . I started to get emotional and said I can’t wait till March I’ve been suffering a lot. She said “I won’t do this for you and you need to stop pushing me. Why would I give you Botox prescriptions if I can’t inject you ? Does that seem smart ? I don’t think so!!!! If you’ve had it before, go some place else because I am not helping you with this. “
I just didn’t get why she wouldn’t write the petscription I was trying to understand .
I told her to please not get so upset with me I’m very sensitive and she said if I don’t like the way she does things to wait for Dr. Moses to come back.
The doctor I see is very kind and nothing like that. I’m too sensitive to handle ppl getting upset with me like that. So now I’ll have to go to another place that is pretty far away and try to do it there. It’s so frustrating.
Physio is next door they put me in early so I can lay on the bed and relax and calm down.

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I left bawling my eyes out. When I cry I sort of hyperventilate. Like I do this breathing thing idk how to explain. It’s hard. The girls at physio (luckily right next door) calmed me down, except one was trying to hug me and I just sat there frozen. Once I have my diagnosis I think I’ll be more confident to tell ppl when I don’t want hugs …I’m worried to hurt ppls feelings and it makes me uncomfortable even saying it especially if I’m already upset.
Anyways , I hope she looks into the referral at least. I’m attaching a photo of her. She even looks mean! She knew I’ve been suicidal earlier this month and going through a diagnosis process , was an hour late and didn’t even acknowledge that and STILL chose to treat me like crap *insert eeyore meme here *
Thanks for letting me vent.
*****Ok now to the question - do any of you have a behavioural aide or have a paid support person that can help you and come to appointments and help you with difficult tasks like government forms etc etc etc? I really need help . I’m curious if you do & what that looks like. I won’t give up on making this happen.. (the official diagnosis part) & now that I’m learning so much I see how much help I’ve needed and didn’t even know for so so long. My back tooth is nearly cracked in half and I can’t go into the dentist. I tried and left after the freezing freaking out because of all the noises and her hands inside my mouth . There are places that offer sedation but I’m really low on. Money right now due to a few health factors. I’m so frustrated and feel defeated today. I won’t give up trying to advocate for myself but like this is not the first time I’ve left an appointment bawling my eyes out

Getting the assessment helps me to get financial assistance , maybe I can get some type of paid support person .. idk.
Sigh so my question : those who don’t have family to help and really need it- do you have a aide or some sort of paid helper person that can help you to communicate and manage things ? *******
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