Hi everyone
I'm not really sure where to turn. I was looking for some kind of community or people I could exchange with. I'm 36 and I was diagnosed this summer. I've been feeling very isolated and misunderstood and I barely have any social contacts at all other than my girlfriend and my elderly parents
I love her with all my heart but since we started living together last year it's been very difficult. I often forget things or say the wrong things, I don't notice that the floor is dirty and it's time to vacuum, or I misunderstand things she tells me, etc. I've been extremely tired all year and I've had panic attacks regularly (usually triggered by an argument or if I'm taken by surprise when she's angry at me about something). Recently for example she was very angry because she came home from work at 9 PM and I forgot to prepare something to eat for her for when she came back (I thought she brought lunch to work)
We were planning to have a child but now she feels like I won't be able to handle things and she'll have to think of everything on her own, and it's a deal breaker. When I was diagnosed she thought I would quickly find help and get better but my first therapy appointment with my psychologist is next week so things took longer than we thought and she is losing patience with the delays.
I want to get better but our relationship is at a breaking point and it's extremely painful for me because I love her so much. We have so many beautiful memories together. But at the same time she has expectations that I don't feel capable of fulfulling especially when it comes to daily chores and every day life. To be frank, I'm terrified. My day to day life right now is I feel I'm walking on eggshells and I'm constantly afraid she's mad at me or that I'm going to do something wrong.
Anyway, sorry for the very long message. I never knew why it felt like I was so different from other people and to be frank I'm still processing my diagnosis. Hopefully therapy and exchaging with others will help steer things in a new direction
Cheers.
I'm not really sure where to turn. I was looking for some kind of community or people I could exchange with. I'm 36 and I was diagnosed this summer. I've been feeling very isolated and misunderstood and I barely have any social contacts at all other than my girlfriend and my elderly parents
I love her with all my heart but since we started living together last year it's been very difficult. I often forget things or say the wrong things, I don't notice that the floor is dirty and it's time to vacuum, or I misunderstand things she tells me, etc. I've been extremely tired all year and I've had panic attacks regularly (usually triggered by an argument or if I'm taken by surprise when she's angry at me about something). Recently for example she was very angry because she came home from work at 9 PM and I forgot to prepare something to eat for her for when she came back (I thought she brought lunch to work)
We were planning to have a child but now she feels like I won't be able to handle things and she'll have to think of everything on her own, and it's a deal breaker. When I was diagnosed she thought I would quickly find help and get better but my first therapy appointment with my psychologist is next week so things took longer than we thought and she is losing patience with the delays.
I want to get better but our relationship is at a breaking point and it's extremely painful for me because I love her so much. We have so many beautiful memories together. But at the same time she has expectations that I don't feel capable of fulfulling especially when it comes to daily chores and every day life. To be frank, I'm terrified. My day to day life right now is I feel I'm walking on eggshells and I'm constantly afraid she's mad at me or that I'm going to do something wrong.
Anyway, sorry for the very long message. I never knew why it felt like I was so different from other people and to be frank I'm still processing my diagnosis. Hopefully therapy and exchaging with others will help steer things in a new direction
Cheers.