AuroraBorealis
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Hi, so: A week from now, I will leave to work on a dog farm for 2 months. A dream come true, and I am looking forward to it. But I am absolutely terrified, the closer it gets. I know I want to do this and would regret it if I don't, but I am so, so scared. A few reasons/snips from my anxiety spiral: The place is remote, what if I don't get along with the people there? I won't see my partner for 2 months and I will miss them terribly. What if I don't manage the tasks they give me? What if something bad happens? I won't have my known surroundings and my things. What if I get sick? What if I get overwhelmed from all the newness and get sick from that (this happened in the past)? What if I get meltdowns? What if I won't have the right clothes (it will still be pretty cold winter there) and I can't just go and buy them since the place is so remote? What if I get so homesick I want to leave? What if the people there aren't nice?
This is keeping me from packing, since I keep procrastinating it. I organized it myself, I know that the first few days of adjustment will be hard but that I will get used to everything and like it then, and that I will probably enjoy it a lot. But I am so panicked about it right now, and I could cry when I think about leaving my partner for so long. I will miss them terribly.
I have done other things than this in the past, I know I can do it. But oh God, I'm scared...
What do you do when you're terrified and keep falling into anxiety spirals but also know you really want/need to do this thing you're terrified of?
This is keeping me from packing, since I keep procrastinating it. I organized it myself, I know that the first few days of adjustment will be hard but that I will get used to everything and like it then, and that I will probably enjoy it a lot. But I am so panicked about it right now, and I could cry when I think about leaving my partner for so long. I will miss them terribly.
I have done other things than this in the past, I know I can do it. But oh God, I'm scared...
What do you do when you're terrified and keep falling into anxiety spirals but also know you really want/need to do this thing you're terrified of?