convallaria
Well-Known Member
Hello everyone.
Maybe someone remember me. I struggled with social communication all my life and i was diagnosted when i was 18 years old. I was a student in medical university and i am sorry for my mistakes english is not my first language. I dropped out of the university 2 years ago and started finding job. But i failed this mission. So i entered another university because my parents were crazy about my helpless and lazy person in their house. It was easy to entered but hard to study and again communication. I also didnt like the classes. I didnt want it and... I escaped to the fish factory that located in the far far away island. In october 2020 i returned to my home and it was terrible. In the factory i made a few friends and they like my strange nature. I was so excited about it and i started to live with them in their house. Then i tried drugs first time in my life... now im 22 and im drug addict. when I sniff amphetamine I feel like I'm becoming a normal person. when i smoke weed i feel that there are no problems. I like pictures from LSD trips. I think pregabalin makes me neurotypical. mdma makes life not as awful as it really is.
And this all cost me a lot of money. My boyfriend (i met him in october) also addicted to drugs and i forced him to buy stuff and we spend all our money. I also met psychotherapist and he said that im addict and have depression. I just want to share my problem and hear some support. Maybe someone has simillar problem. I think drugs ruined my youth.
Maybe someone remember me. I struggled with social communication all my life and i was diagnosted when i was 18 years old. I was a student in medical university and i am sorry for my mistakes english is not my first language. I dropped out of the university 2 years ago and started finding job. But i failed this mission. So i entered another university because my parents were crazy about my helpless and lazy person in their house. It was easy to entered but hard to study and again communication. I also didnt like the classes. I didnt want it and... I escaped to the fish factory that located in the far far away island. In october 2020 i returned to my home and it was terrible. In the factory i made a few friends and they like my strange nature. I was so excited about it and i started to live with them in their house. Then i tried drugs first time in my life... now im 22 and im drug addict. when I sniff amphetamine I feel like I'm becoming a normal person. when i smoke weed i feel that there are no problems. I like pictures from LSD trips. I think pregabalin makes me neurotypical. mdma makes life not as awful as it really is.
And this all cost me a lot of money. My boyfriend (i met him in october) also addicted to drugs and i forced him to buy stuff and we spend all our money. I also met psychotherapist and he said that im addict and have depression. I just want to share my problem and hear some support. Maybe someone has simillar problem. I think drugs ruined my youth.