I just wanted to thank everyone for being willing enough to take the time out of their busy schedules to talk to me, offering your words of encouragement to me.
I realize that every time I post about being depressed or hitting a breaking point it scares all of you, and I also realize not everyone always has time to check on the health of an individual who may or may not be a thousand miles away. It's never my intention, but when I feel such horrible pain on the inside, all I can think about is to cry out for help. I always worry that the rest of you who see my posts get annoyed and aggravated rather than concerned, because I've done it so many times... but I don't know how else to ask for the help I need. I would have gone to the emergency room again, but I'm at a point in my life where I can't just drop everything I'm managing to go get rehabilitated; my girlfriend is about to travel here to my hometown, and if I'm in the hospital during that time, she'll think I just left and won't get to see me.
While it becomes increasingly difficult to come down from these cataclysmic panic attacks, coincidentally at the same time I have several things like my "Aloe" friend, among other things...
I am eternally grateful for all you people have done for me. If by some incredible chance I meet one of you in real life, I would be glad and honored to shake their hand.
I realize that every time I post about being depressed or hitting a breaking point it scares all of you, and I also realize not everyone always has time to check on the health of an individual who may or may not be a thousand miles away. It's never my intention, but when I feel such horrible pain on the inside, all I can think about is to cry out for help. I always worry that the rest of you who see my posts get annoyed and aggravated rather than concerned, because I've done it so many times... but I don't know how else to ask for the help I need. I would have gone to the emergency room again, but I'm at a point in my life where I can't just drop everything I'm managing to go get rehabilitated; my girlfriend is about to travel here to my hometown, and if I'm in the hospital during that time, she'll think I just left and won't get to see me.
While it becomes increasingly difficult to come down from these cataclysmic panic attacks, coincidentally at the same time I have several things like my "Aloe" friend, among other things...
I am eternally grateful for all you people have done for me. If by some incredible chance I meet one of you in real life, I would be glad and honored to shake their hand.