AuroraBorealis
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After a painful talk with my partner, I'm quite sure that I'm burned out. The last few years were very stressful with many stressful life events (bad illness in a parent, grandparent died, indirectly affected by war, final exam at uni, intense workload, long visit from relatives, only to name a few), and for the last year and increasingly the last few months/weeks, both my partner and I noticed that I am way more vulnerable to any kind of stress or stimuli. I go outside less because I get overwhelmed by the noise which barely bothered me before. After going somewhere for breakfast and a walk in the forest, I am so exhausted and overstimulated, both mentally and physically, like after several days of intense work. My mood is a bit lower and I have less initiative to do things, although not enough to diagnose a real depressed episode. I don't really feel sad, I am excitable and have happy days, but I feel like my protective wall got missing, like every stress and stimulus hits me like a blow, when a few years ago, it would just have bumped off. I get meltdowns or get very irritable from overstimulation several times a week, and in between that, I often feel anxious or tired or like I just want to be left alone.
Things I thought helped me to recharge, like reading and watching series by myself, don't seem to recharge me anymore but do sort of damage control. Like, I temporarily feel better while I do them, but as soon as I stop, everything is there again. Also, it seems like I crave more and more alone-time but don't feel rested afterwards either.
Since I felt better overall during phases of my life when I exercised regularly, my partner suggested I try to do one exercise unit a day, even if it's a short one. They also suggested I go to the forest once a day (right now, I don't work and it seems that the lack of daily structure also doesn't do me much good), either to walk or to run, both for the physical exercise as well as to get away from the city noise. Since I feel less rested than I used to after sleeping, I will try not to drink coffee anymore for a while.
I find meditation very boring and understimulating, so I won't force myself to do that for now, but my partner and I started to regularly do yoga together, which we will continue.
The biggest stressor - the big, loud city we live in and the fact that to go to the forest, I need to take a train, something that right now also overstimulates me - is something I can't change right now.
I don't really want to see a therapist right now, mainly because I already did in the past and both my partner and I are in (mental) healthcare, so I know what they would suggest to me - some relaxation technique, regular exercising, do things I enjoy, etc. I wanna try that by myself at first. Worst comes to worst, I have access to antidepressants, but right now, I don't feel like I would benefit much from them and want to try without.
Did any of you go through something similar and have advice?
I'm somewhat overwhelmed even by that talk right now. Like, I see the problems and I guess I have sort of a plan for now, but I feel scared because I don't know if these things will help and what I will do if they don't.
Things I thought helped me to recharge, like reading and watching series by myself, don't seem to recharge me anymore but do sort of damage control. Like, I temporarily feel better while I do them, but as soon as I stop, everything is there again. Also, it seems like I crave more and more alone-time but don't feel rested afterwards either.
Since I felt better overall during phases of my life when I exercised regularly, my partner suggested I try to do one exercise unit a day, even if it's a short one. They also suggested I go to the forest once a day (right now, I don't work and it seems that the lack of daily structure also doesn't do me much good), either to walk or to run, both for the physical exercise as well as to get away from the city noise. Since I feel less rested than I used to after sleeping, I will try not to drink coffee anymore for a while.
I find meditation very boring and understimulating, so I won't force myself to do that for now, but my partner and I started to regularly do yoga together, which we will continue.
The biggest stressor - the big, loud city we live in and the fact that to go to the forest, I need to take a train, something that right now also overstimulates me - is something I can't change right now.
I don't really want to see a therapist right now, mainly because I already did in the past and both my partner and I are in (mental) healthcare, so I know what they would suggest to me - some relaxation technique, regular exercising, do things I enjoy, etc. I wanna try that by myself at first. Worst comes to worst, I have access to antidepressants, but right now, I don't feel like I would benefit much from them and want to try without.
Did any of you go through something similar and have advice?
I'm somewhat overwhelmed even by that talk right now. Like, I see the problems and I guess I have sort of a plan for now, but I feel scared because I don't know if these things will help and what I will do if they don't.