You associate with plenty of autistics now.
Please don't let the haters (on the Internet and elsewhere) determine your sense of self-worth, Pastel. Let intelligence, not ignorance, be your influence. There are plenty of successful people on the spectrum. Right here on AC we have members who demonstrate just how exceptional autistics can be: one of us here has an internationally known TV show, another has made a name in the music industry, another tops their field in Eastern medicine and related disciplines, another is an accomplished psychologist and political activist, another is very much respected in the tech world, another was a successful CEO -- I'll bet most of the jerks you see putting down people with autism don't have
half the achievements of any of the members I've noted (and plenty of others here). Besides, only cowards attack what they don't understand.
I'm yet another Aspie who found out later (at 44) that I'm on the spectrum. I agree with
Harrison that I might have felt differently about my autism if I had been diagnosed before I'd had a chance to develop more as a person, and I often wonder if it isn't as much of a curse as a blessing to be identified so young, since so many younger autistics seem to be down on themselves for having an ASD. Finding out I'm an Aspie so late may have spared me from allowing a label to prevent me from anything. I didn't dwell on my liabilities -- I strove to overcome or get around them because I didn't have a list of diagnostic criteria to tell me I probably couldn't. I still have some difficulties from my Asperger's, but it's pretty amazing how much I've grown and adapted myself over time.
ASDs are a challenge and I
totally understand and empathize with your frustrations, but keep in mind that ASDs also come with a number of gifts that many NTs lack. Here's a favorite
list of advantages that come with Asperger's/HFA that I like to post to new members who are feeling less than satisfied with who they are as people on the spectrum. Take some time to identify these strengths in yourself, and reflect on what you can do with them to neutralize your personal challenges. When you see or hear something negative about your ASD, remember the list and be proud to be you.
By the way, I don't drive, either. But I've never let it stop from getting anywhere or doing anything I wanted. Not doing everything the mainstream does isn't a sign that you're deficient. Finding alternative ways of being and doing can make you a better, stronger person than most, if you can learn to ignore the pressure to be "normal". And anyway, normal is just so
boring.