I am the worst loser ever!

[DarkLady]

I have no more job (quit/couldn't handle anxiety) and I don't think I'm going to school. My dad never took me to the acting call I wanted to attend. My book got rejected again despite a full request. I will probably never be famous like I want and have no other goals. The guy I wanted to date never responded to my email. My doctor is leaving me. I got into a fist fight with my shrink yesterday and I hit him and then my dad hit me right there and I wanted to run away and I can't get along with my grandma and uncles and can't talk to them and I had deaths in the family and my mom is having medical problems. I just can't take this and all I can do is meltdown and shutdown and watch TV all day and people won't even let me; it's so frustrating!!!!!

 

[GoofKing]

Sorry that your going through a rough time but we all have times like these and it doesn't make you loser of any sorts. it sounds like you need a place to call your own or some sort of sanctuary where no one could bother you. Is there anything you could do to take your mind off of your situation and bad luck ?

You're not a loser, your just someone who's having a hard time right now and is needing some sort of help or coping mechanism to deal with your problems.

 

[Ereth]

I won't address everything you talked about, but I have to say two things:

I will probably never be famous like I want and have no other goals.

Honestly, how important is fame? It's not really a quantifiable goal. Putting yourself back together so you can go to school and hold a job should be number one on your list. I know it's sometimes not easy to be practical. I have dreams, too, and lately I've been fortunate enough to get on track to achieving some of them. But before I could do that, I had to recover from a serious depressive episode and then finish college. Hold onto your dreams, but make sure you have the tools necessary to pursue them---and prepare backup plans.

The guy I wanted to date never responded to my email.

Unless you're using a dating website, asking someone out through e-mail isn't the best idea. A face-to-face meeting is better.

 

[Rudy Schmidt]

You're definitely going through a rough patch, to say the least (I'm aware how much of an understatement that is). People may not agree with me, but sometimes I feel like cutting off my emotions is the only feasible short-term option, until I can get some distance from what's going on around me. Right now, it sounds like you need time alone. Time to process, time to try to be calm, and plenty of sleep, if possible. It seems like the more nights sleep you have between yourself and a traumatic event, the easier it becomes to cope with.

If you ever need someone to hear you, you can always talk to us. Feel free to send me a PM some time, if you feel like it - I don't give good advice, but I'll listen to you and not judge you.

 

[Peace]

I don't hear anything in there that says looser to me. What I hear is someone who has many struggles, and needs something more to cope than what they have available. They are very different things.
Breathe.... and rest somewhere safe. Some of these things you have no control over, the others, you can choose which one is most important and put most of your energy toward that. My strategy is "One Thing A Day". Or one thing at a time. I have failed so many times that I can now honestly say that I am a huge success at failure!
I hope that you see how important you are. I have had many times like this in my life, where my friends and family have said things like "I Can't Believe How Bad Your Luck Is".
There will ALWAYS be tomorrow. Hang in there and let us know how you are doing. We hope to hear some positive things soon, but if not, we are here for however long it takes.

 

[GallacticGorilla]

When it pours, it rains... doesnt it?

Not to sound like a motivational speaker, but I think the universe has this law of momentum. The Momentum of emotional energy will follow the path of least resistance.

Try and do some good things for yourself, Clean your house, get a massage, clear your head, and force yourself to do something productive. If you get a little momentum going in a positive direction, the the hope is, that that will snowball, and help change the direction of your path for the better.

Personally, I would never want to be famous, I could not intellectually process the pressure of thinking everyone out there, could nit pick and talk about me like my life was an exhibit in a museum, and they had carte blanche to examine every inch of it. Remember Brittany Spears shaving her head, and getting all cray cray. That would totally be me.

No, fame does not have much appeal, but behind successful and just moving, emotional kinetic energy getting flow in, activating and exciting those emotional protons and electrons, Letting them build that positive charge up, like the kinetic charge that build in a cloud, and then BOOM! you got lightning, go get a bottle.

Ha, at least thats what I try and tell myself.
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[aj]

Im not really good at these sort of things but i read this and felt a little bit bad for you. I just wanted to say that none of that you are explaining makes me think of you as a looser. A looser will give up without trying. To me it sounds like your DEALING with a lot, it is understandable you having meltdowns and shutdowns but when you are ready you can try work towards what you want in life. Take it stage by stage. Make a plan and think of best ways to complete it. Dont give up keep trying and if that plan isnt working modify your plan till it does work. The more work you put into it the more chance you will get it. Keep trying and never loose hope and you will go far. It may take time but keep going, you deserve this and i hope you get what you want. I hope this helps, like i said im not good with this sort of thing but felt like il give you my advice :/

 

[The Penguin]

I don't think your a lower. Instead you had uunfortunate events happen to you. Hope you're doing better.