Well l use to worry a lot, like huge pots of worry. Then logic told me nothing changed, worrying really brings no relief, so l let that go. But then l started ruminating with huge boatloads of incredible amounts of backwards replaying of my pity party, table for one of why did my ex hurt me? What l have learned is that it increased my anxiety to the point that l had to release it to allow peace back into my life. So like worrying, it didn't make things better, because l couldn't figure that out.
So l may ruim here or there, l actually wonder if it's a stim at this point. We probably feel comforted somehow, but l don't see it as a healthy stim.
l am going to talk to my counsler about it. I am doing less of it. And l fall into it about every couple months but it doesn't feel good to me. So l talk myself out of it. Last nite l started to ruim but l didn't like myself, so l shut it down telling myself it is a undesirable trait.l made a conscious effort to shut it down but l ruim for about 10 mins. So you can wean yourself away but you need to want to stop.
So l may ruim here or there, l actually wonder if it's a stim at this point. We probably feel comforted somehow, but l don't see it as a healthy stim.
l am going to talk to my counsler about it. I am doing less of it. And l fall into it about every couple months but it doesn't feel good to me. So l talk myself out of it. Last nite l started to ruim but l didn't like myself, so l shut it down telling myself it is a undesirable trait.l made a conscious effort to shut it down but l ruim for about 10 mins. So you can wean yourself away but you need to want to stop.
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