breakpoint64
Active Member
(title is supposed to say “second opinion” huh)
Hey, I’m new to this place I guess and debated myself for a long while to actually create an account on an ASD forum, It doesn’t help that early this year I decided to spend a significant amount of money to actually get diagnosed finally after years!
Except I didn’t get diagnosed.
I have been told that my language delay and echolalia (something I were put i therapy as a child) I had during my early childhood just imply that I could impossibly have Aspergers.
I couldn’t have Infant Autism due to “lack of evidence” and parents being unsure when exactly I’ve had my language delay.
And I also couldn’t have atypical autism due to the lack of intellectual disability
I live in a country where the ICD-10 is exclusively used and were told that I have been done a favor for not getting a diagnosis. My experiences mean nothing on whether or not I am on the spectrum but I still want to be part of this community solely out of spite. I do however have an ADHD diagnosis but noticed that the communities I were in felt rather depressing than supportive.
ASD is something alongside ADHD I have suspected for uhhh since high school I did go to therapy for suspected autism as a child.
I have received an ADHD diagnosis a few years ago and while receiving a diagnosis and getting help helped me to get my life together, I still wanted to get a question on whether or not I am on the spectrum, since you are on the spectrum or you aren’t, no in between from what I have read.
It just happens that I didn’t look autistic enough for the ADOS and I wasn’t allowed to fill out any questionnaire during the assessment process and being told that my special interests I have had since I was a child, inability to engage with other people’s humor and feeling uncomfortable with certain food like ketchup or that fat from steak means nothing.
My experiences don’t matter but I still want to talk about mine out of spite, i shouldn’t actually part of this but I am out of spite, I am likely incredibly fake and making everything up like I have been told for years but I’m still here out of spite.
I don’t want to call it a “self-diagnosis” because at this point I have downright annoyed my ADHD therapist to tell me that there is a very likely chance that I’m “sub clinically” on the spectrum. Despite being told that I could be impossibly on the spectrum by a so called “professional”.
If I never went to the assessment back then which I should have but regret that I still did it I probably would have felt more comfortable calling it a “self diagnosis” and not “disagreeing with someone who has studied a subject and earned a degree I am just a layman about”
I’ve never related to Christopher from Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime because I envy people who find enjoyment in numbers without experiencing the trigger of constantly being reinforced that they are horribly bad at math.
I did however relate to Abed from Community, his thought process, his interests, his character finally allowed me to perceive how other people usually see me before they lash out their 500th unfunny Sheldon Cooper comparison joke. I had to bother with during my teenhood.
At this point I am probably writing an essay now but it’s important for me for people to get the full picture of the situation I’m stuck in and my constant feeling of having an identity crisis where I just want to accept myself but I feel like I am not allowed to have an explanation.
Thank you very much.
Hey, I’m new to this place I guess and debated myself for a long while to actually create an account on an ASD forum, It doesn’t help that early this year I decided to spend a significant amount of money to actually get diagnosed finally after years!
Except I didn’t get diagnosed.
I have been told that my language delay and echolalia (something I were put i therapy as a child) I had during my early childhood just imply that I could impossibly have Aspergers.
I couldn’t have Infant Autism due to “lack of evidence” and parents being unsure when exactly I’ve had my language delay.
And I also couldn’t have atypical autism due to the lack of intellectual disability
I live in a country where the ICD-10 is exclusively used and were told that I have been done a favor for not getting a diagnosis. My experiences mean nothing on whether or not I am on the spectrum but I still want to be part of this community solely out of spite. I do however have an ADHD diagnosis but noticed that the communities I were in felt rather depressing than supportive.
ASD is something alongside ADHD I have suspected for uhhh since high school I did go to therapy for suspected autism as a child.
I have received an ADHD diagnosis a few years ago and while receiving a diagnosis and getting help helped me to get my life together, I still wanted to get a question on whether or not I am on the spectrum, since you are on the spectrum or you aren’t, no in between from what I have read.
It just happens that I didn’t look autistic enough for the ADOS and I wasn’t allowed to fill out any questionnaire during the assessment process and being told that my special interests I have had since I was a child, inability to engage with other people’s humor and feeling uncomfortable with certain food like ketchup or that fat from steak means nothing.
My experiences don’t matter but I still want to talk about mine out of spite, i shouldn’t actually part of this but I am out of spite, I am likely incredibly fake and making everything up like I have been told for years but I’m still here out of spite.
I don’t want to call it a “self-diagnosis” because at this point I have downright annoyed my ADHD therapist to tell me that there is a very likely chance that I’m “sub clinically” on the spectrum. Despite being told that I could be impossibly on the spectrum by a so called “professional”.
If I never went to the assessment back then which I should have but regret that I still did it I probably would have felt more comfortable calling it a “self diagnosis” and not “disagreeing with someone who has studied a subject and earned a degree I am just a layman about”
I’ve never related to Christopher from Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime because I envy people who find enjoyment in numbers without experiencing the trigger of constantly being reinforced that they are horribly bad at math.
I did however relate to Abed from Community, his thought process, his interests, his character finally allowed me to perceive how other people usually see me before they lash out their 500th unfunny Sheldon Cooper comparison joke. I had to bother with during my teenhood.
At this point I am probably writing an essay now but it’s important for me for people to get the full picture of the situation I’m stuck in and my constant feeling of having an identity crisis where I just want to accept myself but I feel like I am not allowed to have an explanation.
Thank you very much.
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