Hello, this is very difficult for me, as I have lived alone, with no friends or family for 25+ years. I have isolated myself, mostly because I thought people just didnt like me, always getting offended at what I said, so I deduced the easiest solution was just to not socialize. I have daily routines that I adhere to diligently, its what gets me by day to day. I always knew I was different, but I had no understanding of what ASD was. A few years ago, I had a tumor in my brain, which turned out just fine, this is not what I'm writing about, but just a challenge I overcame. The result, was me speaking with professionals, and received my diagnosis. Nothing changed in my life, I have continued to isolate myself, more then ever, again, because I have never felt a connection with another human, and the thought that people dont like me. The thing that did change, was that I was gaining more knowledge about myself, and wanting to learn more. So that brings me up to now, I have so much confusion about everything, and I've been alone for so long, I have extreme anxiety, even to speak with a doctor or, psychologist. So now I live with the knowledge of my diagnosis, but I dont know where to go from here. Am I alone with these thoughts?