Mattymatt
Imperfectly Perfect
Thanks to the positive benefits of gastric bypass surgery, I have lost a good amount of weight and I am getting healthier physically and mentally so now I am finding that I want to have a social life again with maybe one or two friends. I have so much more energy now and I no longer need to take naps - I can stay awake for an entire day without having difficulty. I even feel like I want to dip my toe into the dating waters again. For the first time in a very long time, the chronic depression and anxiety I've had has been dramatically easing up. At the same time that I want a more active social life, I am desperately afraid of backsliding because it took me so many years to climb out of the deep, dark hole that clinical depression is.
I went to the local bar today to sip a beer and have some wings. I found myself thinking that I feel pretty darn good now and better looking and kind of want a relationship. At the same time, I am scared of having my heart torn to shreds as it takes me a long time to get over heart break. Despite having a relatively menial job, I am happy doing it. I like working in fleet service even though I don't earn a lot of money.
Would it be wise to let myself continue to recover a little longer before jumping into the (sometimes) turbulent waters of a love life? Other than being a really nice guy and decent looking, I am not a great catch from money earning/ambition standpoint. I am not ambitious. I really like my job and am okay tailoring my life style to meet the amount of money I am earning. I am even starting to develop some arm muscle from moving baggage.
I went to the local bar today to sip a beer and have some wings. I found myself thinking that I feel pretty darn good now and better looking and kind of want a relationship. At the same time, I am scared of having my heart torn to shreds as it takes me a long time to get over heart break. Despite having a relatively menial job, I am happy doing it. I like working in fleet service even though I don't earn a lot of money.
Would it be wise to let myself continue to recover a little longer before jumping into the (sometimes) turbulent waters of a love life? Other than being a really nice guy and decent looking, I am not a great catch from money earning/ambition standpoint. I am not ambitious. I really like my job and am okay tailoring my life style to meet the amount of money I am earning. I am even starting to develop some arm muscle from moving baggage.