Hello. I was recently diagnosed with asd after thinking for quite a while it might be the case. I was diagnosed by a psychiatrist in a one-off session. The psychiatrist does specialize in autism. So why am I having so much trouble feeling like I’m allowed to consider myself autistic?? Could she be wrong? Could we both be wrong? Was she not thorough enough?
Autism makes so much sense to me. I have a close relative with it and my son is being assessed too. But I don’t think anyone meeting me would think I was autistic. I feel like a fraud. I find myself over thinking it all and wondering if I’ve somehow made it all up, but I haven’t.
I feel like I’m noticing things about me all the time now. Sometimes that’s really helpful, eg I’m starting to see sometimes why there is communication breakdown or why I’m getting angry. I’ve been able to ask my partner to just tell me what they need instead of being indirect. But I feel like I have so much to learn about how this label fits with the way I am. I want to learn more. I’m not getting any follow up with the psychiatrist and I’m too embarrassed to go talk to anyone else.
I don’t know if it’s relevant or worth telling anyone. Feels like I’d be coming out all over again!
Sorry for the ramble, I just needed somewhere to share thoughts and feelings. Open to hearing any similar experiences/comments. Thanks for reading
Autism makes so much sense to me. I have a close relative with it and my son is being assessed too. But I don’t think anyone meeting me would think I was autistic. I feel like a fraud. I find myself over thinking it all and wondering if I’ve somehow made it all up, but I haven’t.
I feel like I’m noticing things about me all the time now. Sometimes that’s really helpful, eg I’m starting to see sometimes why there is communication breakdown or why I’m getting angry. I’ve been able to ask my partner to just tell me what they need instead of being indirect. But I feel like I have so much to learn about how this label fits with the way I am. I want to learn more. I’m not getting any follow up with the psychiatrist and I’m too embarrassed to go talk to anyone else.
I don’t know if it’s relevant or worth telling anyone. Feels like I’d be coming out all over again!
Sorry for the ramble, I just needed somewhere to share thoughts and feelings. Open to hearing any similar experiences/comments. Thanks for reading