Kaylee
Well-Known Member
Ever since i was a child i was always a bit of a romantic, more so in my mind than anything though, i always over think everything in my life and the idea of relationships of true love always seemed amazing to me and fancinated me, not over thinking, being content being with a person, and developing deep personal relationships.
I do not know if this is something that is impossible or just not with the right person
i have dated quite a few people over the years, and while many of these people i have loved atleast or what i would consider love it was never what i wanted or imagined, while i always wanted to be a person who loved cuddling, loved getting kissed and even enjoyed sex. this was never the real case. while all of these things sound good in my head i am always over thinking and it makes all of these things uncomfortable to a degree.
Currently i am dating a wonderful woman, smart, nerdy, genuine, and understanding. she is one of the best relationships i have had in a long time. the odd thing is though that i find myself doing things i feel make me look distant. such as instead of cuddling i would rather just sit on a couch with a person watching TV or having deep intelectual conversations. not being a huge fan of physical contact. maybe she isnt the right person. maybe its just something i will never be able to truely enjoy no matter how much i would want to.
what i really want out of a relationship is to just feel comfortble and content with my partner, to be able to cuddle and hug and other things without overthinking and feeling uncomfortable. i have never had these things with a partner, i can love spending time with someone, talk romance, have intellectual convos and talk about life and our future. but the other parts. things i have always dreamed of having never happen. is this something that is just i have not been with the right people or is it just something that i may never be able to have because of overthinking and sensory issues.
I do not know if this is something that is impossible or just not with the right person
i have dated quite a few people over the years, and while many of these people i have loved atleast or what i would consider love it was never what i wanted or imagined, while i always wanted to be a person who loved cuddling, loved getting kissed and even enjoyed sex. this was never the real case. while all of these things sound good in my head i am always over thinking and it makes all of these things uncomfortable to a degree.
Currently i am dating a wonderful woman, smart, nerdy, genuine, and understanding. she is one of the best relationships i have had in a long time. the odd thing is though that i find myself doing things i feel make me look distant. such as instead of cuddling i would rather just sit on a couch with a person watching TV or having deep intelectual conversations. not being a huge fan of physical contact. maybe she isnt the right person. maybe its just something i will never be able to truely enjoy no matter how much i would want to.
what i really want out of a relationship is to just feel comfortble and content with my partner, to be able to cuddle and hug and other things without overthinking and feeling uncomfortable. i have never had these things with a partner, i can love spending time with someone, talk romance, have intellectual convos and talk about life and our future. but the other parts. things i have always dreamed of having never happen. is this something that is just i have not been with the right people or is it just something that i may never be able to have because of overthinking and sensory issues.
