Arsinoe
Member
Hi to everyone
So I've suspected for years that I'm on the spectrum, I have no official diagnosis yet, I just know that I ''click'' on all those autistic trait boxes and every year that passes, it becomes more and more noticable in my daily life..especially as I get more responsibilities and more obligations (I'm awful at 'adulting').
I'm 31 years old and recently I started studying to get my driving license. Today was my first lesson. And it only confirmed my fears. This is going to be pure torture for me. I have very poor coordination and multi-tasking skills and when I focus on one thing I tend to lose my focus on other things and driving needs you to focus to a bunch of different things at once!
Starting today I was supposed to get accustomed to putting pressures on the pedals and learn how to handle the movement of my toes on them and how to smoothly and slowly release each of them or switch from one of them to the other and use the speeds,etc.. I know it's only the first lesson and I'm probably overstressed but even from the 1st lesson I can tell I will have a hard time with this. While driving, I had my hands on the steering wheel but if it weren't for the teacher handling it and turning it whenever necessary I'd have otherwise not even noticed its existence! I was so hyper-focussed on my legs and the teacher's instructions so I wouldn't miss anything that I didn't even remember there was a steering wheel..it's like I was holding it only as a decorative part rather than something that is meant to help the car's movement. I don't know how the 2nd lesson will be but even the synchronized movements you have to do with the pedals alone are hard enough for me. I was so stressed before the lesson that my stomach actually hurt and even now, hours after it, I still haven't recovered. I don't care if I won't be a ''good'' driver, I just don't wanna have or cause any accident and be able to drive for my basic needs and for my work. Other than that I won't even be touching that thing if I can help it! I'm really not made to be handling heavy machinery or anything that requires multi-focussing and multitasking x_x Like how do you people handle this? How did you manage to get through the lessons??
Also another question...how did you get your diagnosis? Did you have a brainscan?
So I've suspected for years that I'm on the spectrum, I have no official diagnosis yet, I just know that I ''click'' on all those autistic trait boxes and every year that passes, it becomes more and more noticable in my daily life..especially as I get more responsibilities and more obligations (I'm awful at 'adulting').
I'm 31 years old and recently I started studying to get my driving license. Today was my first lesson. And it only confirmed my fears. This is going to be pure torture for me. I have very poor coordination and multi-tasking skills and when I focus on one thing I tend to lose my focus on other things and driving needs you to focus to a bunch of different things at once!
Starting today I was supposed to get accustomed to putting pressures on the pedals and learn how to handle the movement of my toes on them and how to smoothly and slowly release each of them or switch from one of them to the other and use the speeds,etc.. I know it's only the first lesson and I'm probably overstressed but even from the 1st lesson I can tell I will have a hard time with this. While driving, I had my hands on the steering wheel but if it weren't for the teacher handling it and turning it whenever necessary I'd have otherwise not even noticed its existence! I was so hyper-focussed on my legs and the teacher's instructions so I wouldn't miss anything that I didn't even remember there was a steering wheel..it's like I was holding it only as a decorative part rather than something that is meant to help the car's movement. I don't know how the 2nd lesson will be but even the synchronized movements you have to do with the pedals alone are hard enough for me. I was so stressed before the lesson that my stomach actually hurt and even now, hours after it, I still haven't recovered. I don't care if I won't be a ''good'' driver, I just don't wanna have or cause any accident and be able to drive for my basic needs and for my work. Other than that I won't even be touching that thing if I can help it! I'm really not made to be handling heavy machinery or anything that requires multi-focussing and multitasking x_x Like how do you people handle this? How did you manage to get through the lessons??
Also another question...how did you get your diagnosis? Did you have a brainscan?