autism-and-autotune
A musical mind with recent revelations
Hello everybody; thank you for your input in advance.
I only put this question here because of my position in church. I like a lot of the people there, and have good connections with the other musicians. But lately I've been on the fence of disclosing my autism to the church--maybe not the whole church, but at least the pastor and some other officials. Not for accommodations, and not necessarily because my autism gets in the way of my duties, but simply because...maybe I'm just lonely offline and would like them to know. But why? For validation and recognition? To feel better about myself? Can anyone else relate to this sort of thing?
In talking about it with my fiance, they said that it's essentially useless information that some folks really don't need to know. Other than explaining a few behaviours--like showing up early to practice, masking (physically), being shy and not so talkative and never sticking around for coffee hour, for example. Although sometimes I get really thrown off when it comes to hymns on the fly, especially if I'm confused and can't hear it in my head and replicate it properly. I get really frazzled with certain other musical styles, too.
I guess I'm just getting hung up on the why I'd want people to know. Either I haven't fully identified why, or my reasons are very arbitrary and unconvincing. Is it unneeded information? Is it some sort of loneliness I'm going through? Or is it just an attempt at over-explaining, as I'm sometimes wont to do?
Thanks for reading.
I only put this question here because of my position in church. I like a lot of the people there, and have good connections with the other musicians. But lately I've been on the fence of disclosing my autism to the church--maybe not the whole church, but at least the pastor and some other officials. Not for accommodations, and not necessarily because my autism gets in the way of my duties, but simply because...maybe I'm just lonely offline and would like them to know. But why? For validation and recognition? To feel better about myself? Can anyone else relate to this sort of thing?
In talking about it with my fiance, they said that it's essentially useless information that some folks really don't need to know. Other than explaining a few behaviours--like showing up early to practice, masking (physically), being shy and not so talkative and never sticking around for coffee hour, for example. Although sometimes I get really thrown off when it comes to hymns on the fly, especially if I'm confused and can't hear it in my head and replicate it properly. I get really frazzled with certain other musical styles, too.
I guess I'm just getting hung up on the why I'd want people to know. Either I haven't fully identified why, or my reasons are very arbitrary and unconvincing. Is it unneeded information? Is it some sort of loneliness I'm going through? Or is it just an attempt at over-explaining, as I'm sometimes wont to do?
Thanks for reading.