Kayla55
Well-Known Member
I became more of a recluse over the years, disillusioned by shallow social systems and really not fitting in.
After my children I was in hibernate mode for about 5 years and slowly returning to society, finding just keep up brief appearances, go on more nature walks I suppose keeping safe distance, not saying or doing anything to upset the grain.
So I look back and find me watching teenagers doing their thing....
I am even less capable after these years and with isolation of understanding basic human guidelines. I feel not even inclined to want to understand what situation was, jealousy?
Is this autism, isolation or abuse that I had lost years of social development that I'm stunted, undeveloped.
I feel too tired, beyond to try follow what is going on and be able to say what I think.
I think I may for once really truly (not lack empathy) but just have stopped caring and not able to bring myself to connect on human level anymore.
Feel more isolated and alone
After my children I was in hibernate mode for about 5 years and slowly returning to society, finding just keep up brief appearances, go on more nature walks I suppose keeping safe distance, not saying or doing anything to upset the grain.
So I look back and find me watching teenagers doing their thing....
I am even less capable after these years and with isolation of understanding basic human guidelines. I feel not even inclined to want to understand what situation was, jealousy?
Is this autism, isolation or abuse that I had lost years of social development that I'm stunted, undeveloped.
I feel too tired, beyond to try follow what is going on and be able to say what I think.
I think I may for once really truly (not lack empathy) but just have stopped caring and not able to bring myself to connect on human level anymore.
Feel more isolated and alone