VioletHaze_03
Nerdling (Fledgling nerd)
I couldn't find any threads about this, so I thought I'd start one. When you guys are having a meltdown, do you have any stims that could be considered dangerous or harmful? My family is now shocked with my tendencies to hit my head against walls or my own fist when I am too overwhelmed to process what is going on, and even try to physically restrain me, which makes things even worse because I hate people holding my arms, which make me want to lash out even more. I feel a compulsion to do this when I can't process anything, mostly because it gives me something to focus on when everything is too overwhelming. My family angrily insisted on filming the lighter version of this stim (wiping my arm across the side of my head instead of flat out hitting myself) and now want to report it to my counseler, as it baffles them and they think it's something I'm faking for attention. I can't seem to explain to them that this is a meltdown thing, as my meltdowns are usually just shrugged off as me having a tantrum or ostracized because I'm nearly an adult and should be more competent in their eyes. Does anyone have any experience with these types of habits, or know how to help others understand them?