I've been in a relationship for a long time now and I've always had a difficult time in general dealing with changes (big or small-- even my partner disrupting day to day routine stuff can be extremely difficult for me to process) and it feels like this is only getting worse. I'm now to the point where I feel like I can't do anything but panic when things don't go as I expect them to. Which, obviously, is a pretty frequent thing considering people aren't static and are prone to doing unexpected things.
I get really scared that I'll just never be able to handle people and that I'm bound to make my partner hate me. I try really hard not to show when I get really upset by these small things because it makes me feel overreactive and controlling, but it's hard at the same time to hold this in. It hurts to be this way.
I get really scared that I'll just never be able to handle people and that I'm bound to make my partner hate me. I try really hard not to show when I get really upset by these small things because it makes me feel overreactive and controlling, but it's hard at the same time to hold this in. It hurts to be this way.