CassLovesBears
Alekzandra
Yeah, that all makes sense, so much of what you've said is relatable. I was initially diagnosed with bipolar 2, but then it was amended to GAD, not quite PTSD and no explanation for the moods and really unhinged stuff that happens with them. That's without touching on the ASD traits. I know that I need to find another clinic and insist on assessments until we get to the bottom of it. Finding the right med combo has helped since I started letting myself stim again. I cried the first few times because it brought up memories of my mother using the r-word to make me stop, but they're truly the best thing to happen to my mental health.
I can relate to the morning nightmare. My sensory issues are worse when I have to leave on time, so I'll change clothes over and over because things need to be comfortable *and* look the way I want them to.
I am so sorry that your mother said that to you!!!!! My heart broke a little when I read that it's so unfair all the judgements that happen. I adore flicking and flapping my hands now. Sometimes in public I think about if I look weird or not but honestly we need to stop and be okay with who we are