I notice that I tend to be short-fused. I don't display it outwardly very often, doing my best to keep it buried. There have been moments that I'm unable to contain. This might happen when I'm unexpectedly disturbed or when someone says something disrespectful to me. But I also anger easily over strange things such as certain emotional expressions (non-threatening) others might display or sounds I hear in my environment.
It's been this way since I was a child. I figure it has some connection with autism but I don't know how that would be determined. When I can't contain any longer, it has manifested in yelling, which I feel is the best possible outcome. The alternative scares me since I have been very close to physically harming others before. The anger I experience feels like a flood of adrenaline. I will have an urge to crush something.
I'm aware that people have their outlets but this isn't something a stress ball or exercise will help. If others can relate, how do you manage that kind of intensity in the moment? I know it can't be healthy for my body.
It's been this way since I was a child. I figure it has some connection with autism but I don't know how that would be determined. When I can't contain any longer, it has manifested in yelling, which I feel is the best possible outcome. The alternative scares me since I have been very close to physically harming others before. The anger I experience feels like a flood of adrenaline. I will have an urge to crush something.
I'm aware that people have their outlets but this isn't something a stress ball or exercise will help. If others can relate, how do you manage that kind of intensity in the moment? I know it can't be healthy for my body.