Let me first state that I am not officially diagnosed and only merely brought up the subject of autism once to which I was told by a psychiatrist that I was too intelligent and articulate to be autistic. It seems unlikely that I'll be considered on the spectrum since where I stay only people with severe autism are considered autistic. Anyway regardless of this I was wondering what my biggest problem is...
And summed it up in one word... FEAR. I have lived with a mental state of excessive fear all of my life. My current isolated lifestyle is just a culmination of my adaptations and idiosyncrasies due to my fearful state. So my question is. Is my inate state of fear due to be being neurodiverse? I can't think of any other explanation since I never suffered from any trauma, abuse or neglect in my early years. Why was I just born a freaful wreck? Am I a case of some type of faulty neurology?
Doess anyone else live with this extreme sense of fear and anxiety fuelled by avoiding more fear? Is this normal for people on the spectrum? I have a cousin with classic, severe autism but i won't be able to ask these questions to him.
Any help or resources on this would be greatly appreciated.
And summed it up in one word... FEAR. I have lived with a mental state of excessive fear all of my life. My current isolated lifestyle is just a culmination of my adaptations and idiosyncrasies due to my fearful state. So my question is. Is my inate state of fear due to be being neurodiverse? I can't think of any other explanation since I never suffered from any trauma, abuse or neglect in my early years. Why was I just born a freaful wreck? Am I a case of some type of faulty neurology?
Doess anyone else live with this extreme sense of fear and anxiety fuelled by avoiding more fear? Is this normal for people on the spectrum? I have a cousin with classic, severe autism but i won't be able to ask these questions to him.
Any help or resources on this would be greatly appreciated.