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Lou Laurinen

Lou Laurinen

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  • Lou Laurinen
    Dreading going to sleep tonight. Last night I had night terrors that were so intense and graphic that I ripped all the sheets off the bed and woke up sweating profusely and hyperventilating.
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    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    "Dream about Mutilation is an indication for the killing off of the old parts and old habits. You are under some sort of pressure. You have been wronged in some way. This dream points at a feeling of helplessness and not being able to escape from life’s problems or stresses. You are underestimating your risks in some endeavor or activity."
    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    Also
    "To dream of being tortured, denotes that you will undergo disappointment and grief through the machination of false friends."

    "It represents feelings of being helpless or victimized. Feelings of having endure emotional pain, difficulties, or a terrible experience. A relationship or situation is intentionally causing you anguish. Feeling unable to break free from a problem that feels unending"
    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    I don't have night terrors, or nightmares. I can have dark dreams, yes. Like videogame, or action movie with horror elements sometimes. But I can't remember ever being tortured or held captive in a dream. Chased, yes. Fighting, yes. Normally I destroy, flee, or I'm wounded.
    Lou Laurinen
    I worked on a painting for several hours today that I got paid to paint, and my friend told me it's the worst painting he's ever seen.
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    AprilR
    AprilR
    What a "considerate" friend
    Judge
    Judge
    Luca, from a number of your more recent comments it sounds like you could used a different social orbit of new friends. I can relate though. Sad to think of how many times I have had to evaluate such considerations over the years.

    But art...it's entirely subjective and always will be. Reminds me of how many people thought Pablo Picasso's works were junk rather than genius.
    Lou Laurinen
    Lou Laurinen
    Thank you Judge. Your wisdom is always welcome on my posts :)
    Some of my friends are great, don’t get me wrong. But some of them are mean. I have mentioned that I cut a lot of them out of my life, but I have had a hard time moving on from some of the current ones.
    Lou Laurinen
    I’m tired.
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    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    I'm actually very well mannered IRL. I will say what I feel though. SO people do kinda react sometimes, like they must think i'm trying to give them a hard time or be difficult.
    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    If I sense somebody is annoyed with me, I will attempt to rationalize my pov though. "See That's why I did THAT! blah blah...." but I dont set out to annoy. I can be very spontaneous, And sometimes people dont like that. IRL I will try to diffuse such situations.

    But online, less repercussions. I've been banned from many sites btw. :D
    Stuttermabolur
    Stuttermabolur
    @Slim Jim I for one find you absolutely hilarious, so please keep it up. I like energetic people with a good sense of humor.
    Lou Laurinen
    One of my speakers, which was out of battery to my knowledge, just randomly turned on by itself, at 3am. Holy moley that is creepy.
    B
    blue_bird
    That is normal. It's happened to me as well. It's a mechanism which let's you know that you haven't switched it off. To avoid it in the future make sure it is switched off even if the battery is flat.
    Aspychata
    Still getting use to layout. But l kinda miss the simplicity of our four year-old software.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Sorry @Luca
    I didn't mean to post in your profile. I got lost in the forum aisle. Lol
    Lou Laurinen
    Lou Laurinen
    It’s okay! Lol
    Lou Laurinen
    Well hello, new site layout lol. A bit confusing since I’m on mobile right now and it’s similar to what (at least I think) social media apps look like, and I don’t use those. But I’ll get used to it! Looks more modern though.
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    Lou Laurinen
    Lou Laurinen
    Hi @Satal , thank you for putting so much work into this update! Hopefully things will run more smoothly for all of us now :) Everything you do behind the scenes is appreciated!
    Satal
    Satal
    No worries and thank you for your kind comments. I hope that the change isn't too jarring for people. I appreciate it is a bit of an upgrade but we were running software that was ~4 years old and had a few security vulnerabilities so I wanted to minimise the risk of someone hacking the site and ruining it for everyone.
    maycontainthunder
    maycontainthunder
    I like the fact we have the same range of like, agree, funny, etc options on the comments section now.
    Lou Laurinen
    I’m always terrified that none of my irl friends think of me as their best friend or their favorite person :( They have said it to others.
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    Lou Laurinen
    Lou Laurinen
    Yes, they are mostly NT. There are two in this particular group that I know are neurodiverse though, at least according to them.
    I have different groups of friends and most of them don't intersect because a lot of the people who are compatible with me would not be compatible with each other.
    Lou Laurinen
    Lou Laurinen
    The friends in question are mostly young adult females too, if that helps put anything into perspective. I'm 6 to 8 years older than all of them but I think our maturity level is pretty similar.
    Stuttermabolur
    Stuttermabolur
    Same here really. I haven't contacted any of them in a month now to see what happens since I tend to be the one to initiate conversations and meetups, and... no-one has contacted me.
    Lou Laurinen
    Someone said something really mean and made me cry so one of my girl friends offered to get me some food and come visit me. <3
    Lou Laurinen
    I was out with my friends all night. Because I'm an extrovert, this means that I'm now energized and will probably not sleep anytime soon.
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    Lou Laurinen
    Lou Laurinen
    That's understandable. Since I'm still autistic after all, I eventually do experience social burnout too! But it takes me a few days of nonstop socializing, or a really big event.
    Shaddock
    Shaddock
    I know that. I call this "psychic exhaustion", which is different than "mental exhaustion" and "phyiscal exhaustion" IMO.
    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    Yeah I get "amped up" too, sometimes.
    Lou Laurinen
    I had a great time with my friends but one said something about me and they all agreed on it and it was kind of mean.
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    Atrapa Almas
    Atrapa Almas
    And last but not least, the amout of talk allowed depends on the social possitions inside the group. A leader is expected to talk more and even propose new OK topics for the group, while followers and outcasts are expected to just follow and applaud.
    Atrapa Almas
    Atrapa Almas
    As you understand about dogs, you will probably find easy to see the similar human group dinamics.
    Homulilly
    Homulilly
    In this context I don’t think they meant you “you only talk about yourself” literally. It could be implied that you talk a lot about your special interests, and they might find it difficult to carry a conversation with these topics.
    Lou Laurinen
    I think I have actually lost about 25 pounds! My hips are still kind of big but I think that’s just how I’m built.
    Lou Laurinen
    New profile picture, but still me! Just a Pointer now lol
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    Lou Laurinen
    Lou Laurinen
    Thanks Loren! :)
    I have a sticker with this same design. The artist who drew it was actually inspired by my dog! She asked for feedback for her Etsy shop and I told her I'd like to see a Pointer sticker, and she asked what Enzo looked like and decided to make a sticker that looks kind of like him :)
    Loren
    Loren
    How nice! Thank you for sharing that experience, and, nice that you have the sticker to enjoy. :)
    maycontainthunder
    maycontainthunder
    That's a really cute pic.
    Lou Laurinen
    I’m being (strongly) talked into purchasing a Treeing Walker Coonhound.
    Lou Laurinen
    Everyone in my life either leaves, or stops caring about me or starts being mean to me. Maybe I’m not good enough :(
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    Loren
    Loren
    I echo what others have said, above, and would add - If we lived in closer proximity, you would be someone I'd wish to become great, lifelong friends with. I mean, of course we can be friends, here. But, I know not the same as real life, or what you're referring to. You are one of the loveliest people I've, personally, come to know.
    Lou Laurinen
    Lou Laurinen
    Thank you Loren, that’s one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to me <3
    You are also one of the loveliest people I’ve ever met.
    Loren
    Loren
    Thank you, Luca <3
    Lou Laurinen
    The fact that my friend told me there was a July 4th shooting and I said “I’m not surprised.” :( This country will only keep getting worse.
    Lou Laurinen
    Lou Laurinen
    There are several obvious reasons that I don’t feel safe in America anymore.
    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    So much unnecessary violence. Humans do find it hard to get along. I've noticed. I'm not surprised either.
    Lou Laurinen
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    Lou Laurinen
    Lou Laurinen
    Pretty much everyone who has come forward with testimony has not been taken seriously because this stuff just gets denied and swept under the rug and evidence is destroyed. The least I can do is share my story and share the stories of other survivors so people can at least ACKNOWLEGE that this happens.
    Stuttermabolur
    Stuttermabolur
    A few years back, I took a bit of a dive and read several of those stories (not through this link, but a similar site). Those stories were absolutely horrifying and the people running this stuff are vile. I am truly sorry that anyone went through that torture, you included. At the very least, you have shown incredible strength to keep going and make a good life for yourself.
    Lou Laurinen
    Lou Laurinen
    Thank you. I hope more people who suffered through this will continue to come forward and something will get done. No one deserves this kind of abuse.
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