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as those who have spoken to me know my head is a strange and dangerous place, my natural instincts tell me i want companionship.
experience has taught me that i cannot deal with other human beings, either i upset/insult/offend them or i loose focus and forget about them, losing interest.
i had a f**k buddy a while ago but she wanted to get a boyfriend and i could no longer think of her as anything other than a sexual being (having seen and interacted with her on that level) so i parted ways with her.
most of the time now my mind drifts, unable to center on one thing long enough to get things done, no mental fortitude to do new or scary things, no ability to sustain (if acquired) internal motivation
i am obsessed with the female form but have little experience with it (nonreciprocal heavy petting) and very little ability with social interaction so i have ended up a hermit, vauge desires for varying things but no ability to fulfill them.
as those who have spoken to me know my head is a strange and dangerous place, my natural instincts tell me i want companionship.
experience has taught me that i cannot deal with other human beings, either i upset/insult/offend them or i loose focus and forget about them, losing interest.
i had a f**k buddy a while ago but she wanted to get a boyfriend and i could no longer think of her as anything other than a sexual being (having seen and interacted with her on that level) so i parted ways with her.
most of the time now my mind drifts, unable to center on one thing long enough to get things done, no mental fortitude to do new or scary things, no ability to sustain (if acquired) internal motivation
i am obsessed with the female form but have little experience with it (nonreciprocal heavy petting) and very little ability with social interaction so i have ended up a hermit, vauge desires for varying things but no ability to fulfill them.
