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Positive rambling

I never thought i could become the person i want to be, but here i am liking and appreciating myself. When i was a child i felt like i was a plant in a desert trying to survive, needing rain but never getting it.
I felt helpless and trapped. I felt like i knew all about the world already, and that i was a person dirty inside and out, a bad mannered, naturally evil person.

I hated myself and felt disgusted by myself, but i received things i never dared to hope for. I was protected from so many bad things in life even though i have nothing that can protect me.

And the best thing is, i look back and can say with certainty that it wasn't anyone else's strength which supported me, it was my own strength God gave to me.

It may be arrogant of me to try to save people, but whenever i see someone hating themselves or feel they're made to be dirty, evil and defective i feel like i need to help them. I need make them see that they don't know what they are capable of.
Which is being a good and kind person, becoming the kind of person they want to be.

And even if they feel like they can't do that, they don't have to carry the burden of everything wrong with themselves. Even if they make mistakes all the time, if they strive to be good for themselves and God, (or whatever power they believe is the strongest in the world) they can forgive themselves. Everyone deserves forgiveness and happiness.


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