Asperger's & Autism Forum

My problem with people is that they're too busy overestimating me. I'm sick of it! I was just talking to my friend about how in biology, the teacher goes too fast on his lessons, and then even talks too fast to the point I can't understand him and even mumbles some of his words, but then when I ask, he's like "I just said the answer" like he's all stressed and everything, and I'm thinking "well, I'm sorry, but I'm slow, and I don't get it" See, I'm not as smart as everyone else! Stop overestimating me! Then he tells me to use the book or the slides, but then the next thing i know, i get everything wrong because it's not specific enough, and I can barely manage on my own! It's enough having a sensory processing disorder and trying to hear him, despite all those loud, popping binder rings and jumping chairs just makes it harder. It's even harder to process what he's saying (because I have some other kind of processing disorder to which I barely understand words used in a certain way...

++ I am suspected to have ASD so please understand this is coming from a vulnerable place. I don’t want anyone to take this the way , I just want to know if anyone ever felt the same for even just a moment.
When my therapist told me a few months ago she strongly believed I was on the spectrum, I didn’t know what that might mean, and I still don’t. I have the media’s version of autism in my mind. All of these thoughts start rushing in... how have I been appearing to be people all my life? Socially?? What was I always doing and failing at? Will things get worse? What does this really mean for me? My therapist said that she hoped I’d find comfort in knowing the cause. I’m not comforted yet. I don’t feel glad yet that I know, I just feel frustrated that it’s what has made my life so much harder and that it is something so confusing.

Heard it, folks. It's time to open up Pandora's box. Stop here, have a drink and share the story of the biggest hints missed from someone who was interested in you that you later on [too late] devastedly understood.

Eg.:
One time I was on a trip and was laying by a girl as we were watching the meteor shower in our sleeping bags.
Her: You should zip in with me, itd be much warmer if we could cuddle together.
Me: I don't think there's enough room. +Zips myself up+
Two years later I ask her why we never hooked up, cause I like her so much. She points out this exact moment as I realize how oblivious I had been to it. We could've been dating all these years had I picked up on it at the time.

Autism, Social Media & Quality of Life Study

Introduction:

Hello, I'm Elly and I'm a Psychology student at University of East London.
I also have a sibling with autism.

About the research:

I'm investigating the relationship between social media use and quality of life in adults with autism.
Social media is a widely debated topic but its use among adults with autism is less understood.

I want to find out how adults with autism use social media and whether it has the capacity to impact positively on their lives.

Any adult (autism diagnosis or not) can take part in the study as I require a range of responses.

The study is an online questionnaire which is completely anonymous. The questionnaire should take about 15 minutes to complete (please see link below).

The research has been ethically approved by the supervisory board at UEL.

I've attached a poster which gives a little more information to the background of my study.

Contact details:
If you have any questions or...

I know - on your face, above the nose. lol But what do you look at as your walking or driving? I realized I always look at the same things as I'm driving. If something seems to stand out, that's what gets my focus. But when I used to drive to work every day - the same route - my eyes went to the same things. The tree branch that stands out from the other trees on the right. The red door on the building to the left. The small group of trees in the field to the left. That big boulder in this yard on my right. I noticed this years ago and it drove me crazy, so I would deliberately try to look the opposite directions and would feel lost and it was like I didn't know what to look at.

When I'm walking I'm going to look at the crack in the sidewalk, the candy wrapper in the ditch, the gum on the tire of the parked car. If I try to just look straight it's too 'constantly changing'. I think I need to look at those single items.

Anyone else notice this with themselves?...

I've seen some studies that show (https://www.jaacap.org/article/S0890-8567(17)31682-9/pdf) that there is speculation on a link between the spectrum and gender dysphoria. I've even heard some people go as far to say that dysphoria is caused by autism. However I haven't seen any reliable study say this is the case so I'm gonna have to take that with a grain of salt.

Can anyone here tell me their take on this topic and whether or not there is a connection?

Hi all I have recently been under a prolonged period of sustained stress which has left me almost unable to function.

In the process of trying to get some relief from this pressure I have been doing more research on the major symptoms which are currently crippling me. Someone suggested I might have Complex PTSD. As soon as I started reading about it and watching clips on YouTube, it became clear that this is a perfect fit for my history and symptoms.

I have suffered from chronic insomnia, anxiety and depression for about the last 50 years, but I am now of the opinion that these things are the result of having C-PTSD from a very early age. I also suffer from hypervigilance, anger, emotional flashbacks, being easily startled, difficulty concentrating and a significant number of other symptoms which are a perfect fit for C-PTSD.

I have read that trauma in early childhood actually changes your neural pathways so I am now wondering if it could actually trigger autism, especially...

Anyone interested in botany?

I kind of have this hypothesis going that auties are most likely to come up as INT- or INF- on a Meyers-Briggs assessment...

I thought it might be kind of fun to find out if there's any truth to that!

So, if you don't already know your MBTI personality type, you can take a free quiz on it here: Free personality test | 16Personalities

You can read more about what the MBTI is here:
Myers–Briggs Type Indicator - Wikipedia

Once you know your MBTI type, please answer the poll.

I'll just be doing something I love, like Garry's Mod, joining an army of Team Fortress 2 characters fighting the other side, then without any warning, some random sad thought or experience I've had in the past will hit me in the brain, and I just start slowing down, falling like a rock into unnecessary sadness...

Nothing's wrong in my life, except we're in the last battle for Sophia to come home and I'm nervous about it, I have a house, which I prayed for, and I have what I need... but for some reason I have this unnecessary thievish urge to just cover myself in blankets, suffocate my weight in potato chips or something diabetics eat for blood sugar, and quietly, noiselessly pump tears for something completely other-dimensional to my situation, and it pops up at the most random times.

I don't have any suicidal thoughts, it's not that bad, but I will have crying spells when this happens. I remember once I was in a fierce war with depression; I would spend whole days in my room...