Catlover614
Love Conquers
I had to call a 24 hour crisis hotline last Friday because I woke up with thought of jumping off of an overpass. I am feeling like I was dealt an unfair hand in life and every single day, it's a struggle to be positive. It's like I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't. I don't even know why I exist at all. I walk with courtesy and kindness to all people, even ones I disagree with. I'm not happy, but it's nobody's fault except mine. There's nothing I can do to change my past. All I can do is strive to better myself, get well, and move forward, but HOW when I am so downtrodden? I don't know how to change from negative to positive in my own strength. I need help. I have to wait until the 19th to talk with psychiatrist and hopefully get prescribed medication. That's a long time when I don't even want to get out of bed.