what does it feel like to be happy?

[chuckintime]

This is a question I have wondered about for a long time. Everywhere I look I see happiness and laughter. But no matter how hard I try, I am always on the outside looking in. I used to think it was achievable, I just had to try hard enough. but after 29 years of failure, how do I lie to myself any longer? Should i just accept this fate? Let the pain inside swallow me whole, and not look back? Or do I keep pretending things might change.

 

[Peace]

There is no reason that things cannot change, and 29 seems like an awfully young age to be making the call. I did not find it until my mid 40's, and although it did not seem like it at the time, it was well worth the wait.

 

[lazaro.rafael]

Do not despair after happiness, happiness is.
Change people near you, make your pleasant, "smile" to the world and people. The world and its people are a mirror, give, and receive.

 

[Soup]

I'm more of a homeostasis person. I like that neutral feeling sort of like a chameleon on the right branch at the right time catching those perfect rays of sunlight, undisturbed in a timeless, eternal moment.

 

[Judge]

This is a question I have wondered about for a long time. Everywhere I look I see happiness and laughter. But no matter how hard I try, I am always on the outside looking in. I used to think it was achievable, I just had to try hard enough. but after 29 years of failure, how do I lie to myself any longer? Should i just accept this fate? Let the pain inside swallow me whole, and not look back? Or do I keep pretending things might change.

I often ask myself the same questions. The only thing though, is how dynamic life really is.

There always is the possibility that things in fact might change. Thus I constructively attempt to live only one day at a time.