I feel lonely when I want to tell somebody something.
Yes. I do something, create something, learn something new, wake up from a dream or nightmare, etc.
I want to talk with someone about it and share it.
And the same with watching TV. I like someone to share the story with. But, it needs to be someone
I feel close with. And since I can't feel that, then it's like being alone even if someone is with me.
My Mom also wanted me to have friends as a kid and tried to get little parties or invite school mates
over. It just never worked out. As others have said, I was bossy, I wanted things my way, if they didn't
like my interests I was annoyed. So nothing ever lasted.
Only with the one I knew and had treated me good since birth. Mom.
I thought of another way to express my feeling of isolation and disconnectedness.
Imagine being a castaway on an island. There are plenty of trees around.
You can sit and look at the beauty of the trees, but, does it make you happy?
Does it make you feel fulfilled? Do you talk to the trees for company?
Occasionally a coconut falls down and hits you on the head. You feel angry.
Maybe you cuss the tree or kick it or hit it with a stick.
Still they are just trees. What kind of emotional connection can you feel for them, really?
Just like on the movie Castaway, maybe you can create a Wilson to feel attached to!