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Very early childhood/baby memories

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It seems to be a fairly common trait of AS and HFA that we have unusually good long-term memories.

I remember a few things from when I was a baby/toddler. I remember my first day of pre-school. My mum had told me that she was taking me to pre-school that day and I was sitting at the table telling her all about "my school". I had never been to school and had no idea what went on, but that never stopped me from thinking I knew all about something. I was 3 years old.

I remember, as a baby, crying for a bottle of milk and my mum telling me that I couldn't have any (I guess that was when she was trying to move me onto solids). I remember how drinking milk made me feel and how it tasted when I was a baby.

I also remember learning to walk. I guess I walked a little late, but I can't have been much older than 18 months. I remember my father getting angry at me and ordering me to walk, and how scared I felt. I think that having such intense memories of very early childhood is why I have always had such an affinity with children.

We moved away from Jakarta, to Thailand, when my son was 2 years and 6 months old. We returned 2 years later. When we drove past the apartment building that we used to live in my son said "hey, that used to be my house". Just as we were saying how amazing it was that he remembered, he said "and that's where my friend Ricky lives". He even remembered his play pal.

We decided to go bowling one day after we had returned to Jakarta, and we asked my son if he remembered the bowling alley. The last time he had been there he was barely 2 years old. He said yes but I didn't really think he did until he started talking about the DVD shop next door to it (it took me a while to remember the DVD shop, but he described it in detail and the penny dropped).
 
I think the earliest I remember something was just getting the hang of walking, I (very unsteadily) walked past the kitchen while mom was doing dishes. Other than that, nothing else atm from the toddle era. I'm sure there's more.
 
I seem to remember being in the baby bouncer at my nans house. I remember spinning one way so that it would unwind and spin me the other way. I have no idea how old I was. As I am writing, I seem to be able to remember other examples. I am sure that I also remember being in the pram. I also have some very strong memories of being at playschool. I could probably draw a plan of where everything was at my playschool!
 
One of the teachers at my pre-school was "Miss Dragavic". I thought that this was a pretty scary name and I used to think her name was "Miss Dragon-Witch". I remember my mum trying really hard to explain to me that that wasn't her name and it wasn't a nice thing to call her.
 
I have a lot of memories from ages 3 and 4. I have countless memories of pre school, I may even remember the whole thing. I don't remember learning to walk or anything like that, though.

I remember one time the girls were playing witches under the jungle gym, hocus pocus had just come out I think, and I wanted to play too. They said, "no, you can't play with us, you're too weird." I never understood that. I was clean and well behaved. Aren't all three year olds "weird?" I had to play with the mailman set because there wasn't anything else to do, because nobody liked playing mailman, and I cried the rest of the day.

ETA: Now that you mention it, I do have crib memories. I remember when I first started being able to climb out myself. I don't remember when that would have been, probably two or three I'd guess.
 
I can trace personal conscious events back to age 2. I was out in the snow, near a frozen river, seated in someone's lap as we'd just entered our rusty wagon, looking at the gray sky. A cold sense was trashing my soul deeply. Another time, I was with my mother feeding the ducks bread crumbs (from my meal). It was very quacky---while I was drowning elsewhere, inside me.

And once, at age 3, we were at a lake on a bright, windy day. Half-submerged, I was reluctant to feel the sand beneath my feet (for fear of some monsters :)). Another time, standing on a wooden bridge, I had my little dinosaurs helplessly slipping through my hand, all the way down to the lake, through the small gaps/perforations (I'm very clumsy motorically and couldn't tie my shoes until age 12 or so). Nobody would take them for me, and my heart shattered as we went home empty-handed, with my gradually faint gaze still fixed on the lakebed where the toys were lying for 'eternity'.

Then, as my heart remembers, (physical) time just passed by quickly, but with loneliness long-winding.
 
I can remember certain things very vaguely back until I was around two or possible just before. But not enough of them to mean anything. I just remember a few seconds of where I was and what I was doing.
 
LoL I would have been haunted the same way---with a less caring mom. :)


One of the teachers at my pre-school was "Miss Dragavic". I thought that this was a pretty scary name and I used to think her name was "Miss Dragon-Witch". I remember my mum trying really hard to explain to me that that wasn't her name and it wasn't a nice thing to call her.
 
I remember at nursery when I went on the slide, it's very vivid. A classmate locked someone in this bit under the slide and I was too impatient to wait and slid down the slide and kicked the person before me.
 
I was telling my roommate about an experience I'd had in soccer practice when I was three today and she was like, "HOW DO YOU REMEMBER THAT FAR BACK???"

How do you NOT? XD
 
LoL I would have been haunted the same way---with a less caring mom. :)
My mum was the absolute greatest and most caring person who ever lived. She actually understood me, although she was in complete denial about the possibility that I had autism. My father was evil personified. You win some you lose some I guess.

Evar said:
Another time, standing on a wooden bridge, I had my little dinosaurs helplessly slipping through my hand, all the way down to the lake, through the small gaps/perforations (I'm very clumsy motorically and couldn't tie my shoes until age 12 or so). Nobody would take them for me, and my heart shattered as we went home empty-handed, with my gradually faint gaze still fixed on the lakebed where the toys were lying for 'eternity'.

I always dreamed of having toy dinosaurs when I was a kid. I read every book or story on the subject but... in the late 60s/early 70s there were not a lot of toy dinosaurs around. I once got some clay and was going to make a model of a kid sitting on the back of his pet triceratops like in a book I once read - I was about 6 years old when I read that book and I can still remember the whole story like it was yesterday. But I couldn't get it to look like anything more than a couple of shapeless lumps. If I'd had some toy dinosaurs and they had fallen into a lake I would have been inconsolable.
 
:)

Yes, that was the first time I practically felt loneliness (interpreted in terms of the presence of others) progressing in secret. That no one else, like shadow, could complete/cover that isolated inner hemisphere.

It touched me in the form of a brightened, thickened wound from outside, from this world of people, by shadowy waters and windy shores.

I wouldn't do that to my child, or anyone's, especially in this ever-nocturnal world.


My mum was the absolute greatest and most caring person who ever lived. She actually understood me, although she was in complete denial about the possibility that I had autism. My father was evil personified. You win some you lose some I guess.



I always dreamed of having toy dinosaurs when I was a kid. I read every book or story on the subject but... in the late 60s/early 70s there were not a lot of toy dinosaurs around. I once got some clay and was going to make a model of a kid sitting on the back of his pet triceratops like in a book I once read - I was about 6 years old when I read that book and I can still remember the whole story like it was yesterday. But I couldn't get it to look like anything more than a couple of shapeless lumps. If I'd had some toy dinosaurs and they had fallen into a lake I would have been inconsolable.
 
I remember my old house in Portland, my baby sitter, my stroller, my car seat and high chair, wearing diapers, playing on the fake ship at the mall here, falling down the stairs, watching my Disney Sing Along videos. I also remember the time my baby sitter held me over the railing on our stoop and dropped me in the bush. I also remember going to the doctor's and being scared and he had this metal thing over his face and it was round and I remember my parents taking me to the kitchen and lying me down on the towel and my mom being on top of me and putting something in my mouth. It was scary. I also remember my dad and his friends looking at a red tricycle in a toy store and then Christmas came and that same tricycle was there and I remember getting a toy piano.


My earliest memory is being at a house filled with toys and I was always alone and never played with anyone or interacted. I remember being on the couch having my diaper changed and there was this other little girl talking and the person who watched all the kids there had a tub of water and she put it on the floor and I was lying there. Then she started touching me down there and I remember I didn't like the feeling so I made a fuss about it.

I also remember my dad's red car he used. It was a business car he used and I remember being in it and I can remember being left in the car alone. Back in those days it was acceptable to leave your kids in the car so my dad always left me alone in my car seat while he run inside to do an errand or appraise a house.
 
TBH, I don't have many memories and even if I did I doubt I'd be able to tell you when they were, I'm terrible with stuff like that.
My memory doesn't seem to be very clear at all anymore and randomly works and then doesn't when it comes to past events(information is good though (Y), and conversations (Y)).
EMZ=]
 
I can remember when I was a little boy when I used to be scared to death with Barney (that gay dinosaur) just jumping out of the TV and scaring the living daylights out of me. :lol: Surprisingly enough, I still remembered that dream and ever since, I had been scared to watch it.

Thankfully grew out of that fear when I was 5. :lol:
 
I have an atrocious memory for events and I can barely remember any of my childhood (there was abuse and I think that is a big factor). The earliest I can remember is being 2-3 and running in the bathroom, slipping and hitting my head on the stairs. I think it is amazing that you guys can remember so much, it always confuses me when people are able to clearly bring up childhood memories.
 
My memory doesn't seem to be very clear at all anymore and randomly works and then doesn't when it comes to past events(information is good though (Y), and conversations (Y)).
EMZ=]
That is how it is with me too. I can recall information easily, but anything to do with people, faces or names I can never remember. Even as from only a few years ago.
 
I have very sharp memories from being ten months old (my parents confirmed I was ten months as there were pictures up in the room that I remember that weren't up after that), up until I was twelve to thirteen, after that I only have a handful of memories until I was 16 or 17, I blame chronic fatigue syndrome with the horrific brain fog that came with it and being put on a strong adult dose of Valium at 14 or 15 years old.
 
I have very vivid memories that date back to three years old. My most impressive one was told to my Father who was replacing the column gear shift mechanism on a 4 door 1956 Mercury he was driving at the time. It was a green metallic car with a white roof and the project was installing a Spark-o-matic floor shift. The memory is so detailed that I was able to describe where it was being done and what all the surroundings looked like at the time. I consider it my first experience with automotive repair as a helper who was handing tools to him under the car. This was something that had never been discussed as it was just a mundane part of life at the time.
 

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