AsynchronousAxolotl
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I have always struggled with timed assessments. I don't know if it is an autism thing or simply a universal human annoyance that I'm just overthinking, but I would really appreciate some input from others on the spectrum.
The earliest incident I can remember was during second grade testing for the 'gifted' program (I know some people dislike the term, but that is what they called it at the time). As part of the test, they gave me a blank grid of squares and instructed me to illustrate a story with them. This exercise was designed to measure creativity- assuming such a thing could be measured. I was very excited by the task, and I spent all of the allotted time creating one, intensely detailed panel instead of a coherent narrative with many, sparsely detailed panels- it was just the way my brain was wired. I had a very elaborate vision in my head, but I didn't have nearly enough time to translate it. Consequently, I failed the creativity section! Looking back, I just find this a ironic illustration of how misguided attempts to quantify creativity are. Unfortunately, my timed test woes didn't end there.
As I progress farther in the public education system, it seems like every major exam is timed. These assessments are one of the greatest sources of anxiety in my life right now. I find that it is when taking timed tests that I am most prone to engaging in self-destructive stimming behaviors (ripping out my eyebrow hairs has been the most common one) or even shutdowns. In short, it's interfering with the quality of my life, and of course my performance has suffered.
So...how does one cope? In a system that equates intelligence to mental velocity, timed tests aren't going to disappear, and I need to adapt. What tactics are others found helpful for mitigating the stress, preventing shutdowns, and dealing with general autism related difficulties during exams?
The earliest incident I can remember was during second grade testing for the 'gifted' program (I know some people dislike the term, but that is what they called it at the time). As part of the test, they gave me a blank grid of squares and instructed me to illustrate a story with them. This exercise was designed to measure creativity- assuming such a thing could be measured. I was very excited by the task, and I spent all of the allotted time creating one, intensely detailed panel instead of a coherent narrative with many, sparsely detailed panels- it was just the way my brain was wired. I had a very elaborate vision in my head, but I didn't have nearly enough time to translate it. Consequently, I failed the creativity section! Looking back, I just find this a ironic illustration of how misguided attempts to quantify creativity are. Unfortunately, my timed test woes didn't end there.
As I progress farther in the public education system, it seems like every major exam is timed. These assessments are one of the greatest sources of anxiety in my life right now. I find that it is when taking timed tests that I am most prone to engaging in self-destructive stimming behaviors (ripping out my eyebrow hairs has been the most common one) or even shutdowns. In short, it's interfering with the quality of my life, and of course my performance has suffered.
So...how does one cope? In a system that equates intelligence to mental velocity, timed tests aren't going to disappear, and I need to adapt. What tactics are others found helpful for mitigating the stress, preventing shutdowns, and dealing with general autism related difficulties during exams?