This happens to me a lot. I look like something is wrong with me because of the way I dress and never look up ,etc. As I mentioned, people sometimes DO try to get in, to be nice. It is natural for humans to want to help.
Well, they almost always start with one syllable words and behaviours they would do if they were talking to someone who is not able to speak or is really challenged to the point of not being able to form words or even write.
So they will ask me what I am reading to get a sense. This is classic. And I say, "Oh, It's a new treatise on physics by so and so...." or whatever it is. I only read academic non fiction so it's generally heavy stuff.
Suddenly I can see their faces sink into shame. I am serious! It's SHAME!! I have analyzed this and imagined if I went up up to someone I thought was maybe "special" but did not realize they were smart.
If I had been reading "Clifford goes to the Vet" they would think of me as their new pet. Once when I was in total mute mode, this happened with several people. They did not know I was smart and would come up and give me that "look"......"And how are we today, Okrad?" (they used my name of course)
Once I learned to answer like, "Oh I am having a rather prolix disputation with myself right now..." I made sure to do that A LOT to avoid those people from treating me like I was a child.
But, once they find out, then they tend to avoid me like the plague and that pisses me off. I don't find their stupidity a reason not to like them. Should I? I am not intimidated by their stupidity even though stupidity has caused MORE TROUBLE on this earth than evil because there are way more stupid than evil people!!!
See? That is why I just block everyone out in total.
A long time ago I had a fantasy that someone would be like, "Oh WOW! I was just reading that, too!!" But then I realize no one is working out Euclid's geometry from his own text these days. No one.
But, in the end, I would rather be smart with no friends than stupid with a load of them. My best friend went on meds a long time ago and DID become stupid. His sole joy in life is making people laugh with 8th grade humour. Detestable.
I realize that my Autism is really showing on this post and that I am sounding judgmental, but let me point out that when they ask me questions I am always kind and always reaching out and still ALWAYS wondering........"Are you a friend? Please be a friend!" So truly, I am the pathetic one.
Well, they almost always start with one syllable words and behaviours they would do if they were talking to someone who is not able to speak or is really challenged to the point of not being able to form words or even write.
So they will ask me what I am reading to get a sense. This is classic. And I say, "Oh, It's a new treatise on physics by so and so...." or whatever it is. I only read academic non fiction so it's generally heavy stuff.
Suddenly I can see their faces sink into shame. I am serious! It's SHAME!! I have analyzed this and imagined if I went up up to someone I thought was maybe "special" but did not realize they were smart.
If I had been reading "Clifford goes to the Vet" they would think of me as their new pet. Once when I was in total mute mode, this happened with several people. They did not know I was smart and would come up and give me that "look"......"And how are we today, Okrad?" (they used my name of course)
Once I learned to answer like, "Oh I am having a rather prolix disputation with myself right now..." I made sure to do that A LOT to avoid those people from treating me like I was a child.
But, once they find out, then they tend to avoid me like the plague and that pisses me off. I don't find their stupidity a reason not to like them. Should I? I am not intimidated by their stupidity even though stupidity has caused MORE TROUBLE on this earth than evil because there are way more stupid than evil people!!!
See? That is why I just block everyone out in total.
A long time ago I had a fantasy that someone would be like, "Oh WOW! I was just reading that, too!!" But then I realize no one is working out Euclid's geometry from his own text these days. No one.
But, in the end, I would rather be smart with no friends than stupid with a load of them. My best friend went on meds a long time ago and DID become stupid. His sole joy in life is making people laugh with 8th grade humour. Detestable.
I realize that my Autism is really showing on this post and that I am sounding judgmental, but let me point out that when they ask me questions I am always kind and always reaching out and still ALWAYS wondering........"Are you a friend? Please be a friend!" So truly, I am the pathetic one.
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