Um. Just tried the above but I think it was meant for a title. I never do titles first. I'm quite scared because I've been reading about aspergers and high functioning autism and I did a test and scored quite high. I tried to be as honest as I could on the test but I'm turning 50 this year and feel that I'm so old to get a diagnosis so late in life. To be honest, the more I read about aspergers/autism the more I recognize myself and the more my life makes sense. I don't want to go into detail but I would like the awful scary feeling to go away. It makes me feel like a freak and even though others have considered me different I've never considered myself different so reading about autism/aspergers confronts me with the invitation to entertain the possibility of that maybe it was me all this time and not everybody else. That is a scary place to be. I rely heavily on a few people who are close to me to get a bigger/better perspective and I don't want to be a burden but I'm starting to think maybe I am. I think I just need time to process all the new information. I don't normally have anything to do with forums etc. But I might learn something.