I’ve made a major cock up at work and I’m worried by job could be at risk. I’ve seen a couple of people sacked her for seemingly minor issues. One was last week – someone failed their probation. They worked on what was meant to be a 2-3 person team. She was on her own and over time the stress led her to make frequent mistakes etc. Her boss sacked her.
I work in compliance for trailers. 4 are overdue an inspection by months. Another 8 were supposed to have a certain inspection done with their service and haven’t These 8 were carried out by a workshop we’ve been having no end of problems with for months. They haven’t sent the documents for these 8 and didn’t charge for them on their labour costs. So clearly they haven’t been done either. Not only did I miss the 4 overdue ones, but I paid the workshop for the other 8 when a full inspection wasn’t carried out.
Most of this year I’d been working from our customer’s service log. They sent it a month in advance and it details which trailer is due what inspection type. I assumed it was correct and didn’t cross check it with ours.
And now it’s all laid bare: 12 trailers and one all mighty mess that I’ve left in my wake. It’s been escalated now to various managers in my company and our customers. As soon as my supervisor told me I spent the last hour doing everything he needed, and going above and beyond to outline as much info as possible - it highlighted a lot of mistakes on my part.
Fingers crossed, because I don’t think this will end well. Now I know, I'm prone to catastrophic thinking and worrying. I also know I've worked damn hard here, and got things more up to date than they ever were with the previous person who looked after these customer contracts. My annual review, my manager praised my attitude and how hard I worked, but he had made mention to my frequent mistakes.
Check, check and check again. But I don't - I never have, and when I do try a new routine and method of checking, I can still miss glaringly obvious mistakes. Plus, these new routines eventually disintegrate and I'm back on old form. Every job I've had, even going back to school: I make frequent mistakes and I always rush.
Seems now I could be paying for it. Problem is, this has been a difficult customer for me from the start. Hard to please, always pointing out any mistake I make. One or two of them seem to have lost their patience with me.
Organisation has never been a strong suit. It can be for things I have an interest in - but not things like work. Then there's the stop start nature of every job I've worked. Focusing on one thing then have to stop everything to start something new. So many things left half done and it's up to me to know where to start back up. It's a huge open plan room - 30+ people making no end of distracting and frustrating noise and conversations.
On a good day my head is all over the place. Focus comes and goes, and even things I enjoy can often be done half-baked. Add to that the daily aches and pains, the distractions at work and just in general. Every job I've had countless meetings with managers who tell me to stop making mistakes. Some were polite, some outright bullied me. Now I work from a place of fear - even though my supervisor here is nice, and laid back. My work ethic remains a hard worker, but one who is terrified of making mistakes and constantly stressed.
I know that stress and the spectrum can affect mental clarity, productivity, focus, attention span and organisational skills. I also know I've never picked a job that brings out the best at me. Instead I've been in jobs which regularly pick out my flaws and leave me constantly doubting myself and working erratically.
Our team has been 1 man down for 7 months. We're overworked, and I was told last week I get a new customer contract next week, and a large one at that. It'll effectively double my work load. So the past 3 weeks I've been working like a blue arsed fly trying to get as caught up as I can.
And now this...
Ed
I work in compliance for trailers. 4 are overdue an inspection by months. Another 8 were supposed to have a certain inspection done with their service and haven’t These 8 were carried out by a workshop we’ve been having no end of problems with for months. They haven’t sent the documents for these 8 and didn’t charge for them on their labour costs. So clearly they haven’t been done either. Not only did I miss the 4 overdue ones, but I paid the workshop for the other 8 when a full inspection wasn’t carried out.
Most of this year I’d been working from our customer’s service log. They sent it a month in advance and it details which trailer is due what inspection type. I assumed it was correct and didn’t cross check it with ours.
And now it’s all laid bare: 12 trailers and one all mighty mess that I’ve left in my wake. It’s been escalated now to various managers in my company and our customers. As soon as my supervisor told me I spent the last hour doing everything he needed, and going above and beyond to outline as much info as possible - it highlighted a lot of mistakes on my part.
Fingers crossed, because I don’t think this will end well. Now I know, I'm prone to catastrophic thinking and worrying. I also know I've worked damn hard here, and got things more up to date than they ever were with the previous person who looked after these customer contracts. My annual review, my manager praised my attitude and how hard I worked, but he had made mention to my frequent mistakes.
Check, check and check again. But I don't - I never have, and when I do try a new routine and method of checking, I can still miss glaringly obvious mistakes. Plus, these new routines eventually disintegrate and I'm back on old form. Every job I've had, even going back to school: I make frequent mistakes and I always rush.
Seems now I could be paying for it. Problem is, this has been a difficult customer for me from the start. Hard to please, always pointing out any mistake I make. One or two of them seem to have lost their patience with me.
Organisation has never been a strong suit. It can be for things I have an interest in - but not things like work. Then there's the stop start nature of every job I've worked. Focusing on one thing then have to stop everything to start something new. So many things left half done and it's up to me to know where to start back up. It's a huge open plan room - 30+ people making no end of distracting and frustrating noise and conversations.
On a good day my head is all over the place. Focus comes and goes, and even things I enjoy can often be done half-baked. Add to that the daily aches and pains, the distractions at work and just in general. Every job I've had countless meetings with managers who tell me to stop making mistakes. Some were polite, some outright bullied me. Now I work from a place of fear - even though my supervisor here is nice, and laid back. My work ethic remains a hard worker, but one who is terrified of making mistakes and constantly stressed.
I know that stress and the spectrum can affect mental clarity, productivity, focus, attention span and organisational skills. I also know I've never picked a job that brings out the best at me. Instead I've been in jobs which regularly pick out my flaws and leave me constantly doubting myself and working erratically.
Our team has been 1 man down for 7 months. We're overworked, and I was told last week I get a new customer contract next week, and a large one at that. It'll effectively double my work load. So the past 3 weeks I've been working like a blue arsed fly trying to get as caught up as I can.
And now this...
Ed
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