Sadism: help please!

[TouhouFan28]

I suggest you go to a website that handles Antisocial Personality Disorder.
I don't judge people who have this issue, since it is beyond their control, BTW.

You're right. Idk I always thought it was a trait of my autism. Probably why when I brought it up to my other autistic fellas they gave me the same reaction LOL.

 

[TouhouFan28]

I'm not a medical or mental health professional, but this sounds like antisocial personality disorder to me, or maybe borderline personality disorder, but definitely not autism. Definitely seek help. Some of these actions are pretty unforgivable and have probably seriously traumatized people.

If you truly want to change, I agree with everyone who said you should go to therapy, and because you actually want help and to be a better person, not because you want to be manipulative. A good therapist will hold you accountable for this behavior, not excuse it.

I'm not sure if empathy can be learned if you don't already experience it, but maybe you can learn that abusing people and animals is not ok, and learn some self-control.
Please get help before you hurt anyone else. This makes me sad.

To add: I have been horrifically abused myself by people who did things like this. To the point of near-death experiences. So I'm not taking this lightly.

I have autism. I always thought that the lack of empathy was a symptom of it. Which is why I made the post. I guess it was just a stereotype. I'm sorry that someone drove you to that extreme. I hope you never meet anyone like me.

 

[scleod]

Nope. My parents raised me well, I grew up privileged and without any shortcomings

Hrmm very interesting. I can see why you would think that autism is the culprit. As it does cause many people to process and feel feelings in a different capacity. Empathy, guilt etc can be included. But much like others have stated. I would recommend some professional help.

Behaviors that you have stated you exhibit, either in the past or now. Are ones that can grow into more sinister things. There is always a route cause a to why one is like this. It could be trauma, which you say you don't have. So that leads me to believe it could be a chemical imbalance. I am not a medical professional either. By any means. If you are looking for some change than you should seek help and betterment of yourself so you do not slip into some unsavory things that you cannot come back from.

People on this forum are very protective of this place because it is a safe haven for them. So you are not getting the warmest welcome with this post. But it also comes across that you are gloating and don't want to change behaviors l. You just don't want to be alone. Which putts those people in danger. People don't want to teach you how to better put others in danger so you don't have to be alone.

I was not trying to sound harsh in anyway. Just truthful. Because I have had known people who have been in the same emotional state. I gave them a chance which was a huge impact on their life. But they came from a vastly different past. They also had the drive to move forward in a positive manner.

So you have to ask yourself.
Do you want to be better?
Do you want to not hurt people?
Do you want to not gain amusment from the pain of others?
Etc
You get the questions I am laying down.

 

[Aspychata]

YOU ask the questions, are you better or are you worse?????

 

[Jonn]

You're right. Idk I always thought it was a trait of my autism. Probably why when I brought it up to my other autistic fellas they gave me the same reaction LOL.

Sadism, overwhelmingly speaking, is the antithesis of what ppl on the spectrum are all about.
Autistic ppl are known for a heightened sense of justice, often compulsively honest, and having an enormous affinity with animals.
In your own words, you have failed on all three counts.

I may have missed it, but have you been officially diagnosed as being on the spectrum, or have you self-diagnosed?

 

[Jonn]

Hrmm very interesting. I can see why you would think that autism is the culprit. As it does cause many people to process and feel feelings in a different capacity. Empathy, guilt etc can be included. But much like others have stated. I would recommend some professional help.

Ppl on the spectrum may lack inherent/intuitive empathy, but that doesn't mean they would be deliberately vindictive as a result.

I dare say, if we on the spectrum unintentionally offend someone, the realisation would cause a state of severe regret for most.
I am speaking from my experience, and others I know.

 

[Lou Laurinen]

I dare say, if we on the spectrum unintentionally offend someone, the realisation would cause a state of severe regret for most.

100%. I hate offending people and hurting people's feelings, and I regret it so much that I obsess about it for a long time afterwards wishing I'd done something differently.

 

[vergil96]

Nothing traumatic happened to me for me to be a sociopath

Isn't it more genetic and environmental than induced by trauma? Sociopathy is when someone grows up in an environment that promotes becoming a criminal. Psychopaths are born.

One way or another, I don't quite understand why you don't put a stop on that. I can understand that bullying might be funny, but come on, you're not a 5-year-old and you know better what the effect is. Idk if a psychotherapist is needed, maybe they would be helpful if you can't do anything about it alone. It's easy to hurt here and there, but you need to think before you act and have a filter. A lot of people want to be aggressive but don't act on it, you're not unique in *wanting*. What is lacking is the impulse control and maybe a full understanding of the implications. I also don't understand why others around you were so lenient before and don't call you out. The girl you mentioned and your sister must really lack assertiveness.

Be responsible and don't go around causing damage to others! Grow up!

 

[Hypnalis]

@TouhouFan28

You certainly have a issue that needs to be addressed by or together with professionals.
Find one ASAP.

FWIW, what you have might show up on a brain scan, because you may have a problem with an observable physical cause. In your situation I'd want to know, regardless of treatment options.
See the short paragraph about James Fallon below).

Important: stop sharing details here:
1. You need to be talking to people who are legally bound to protect your privacy
2. The intersection of modern ideologies and the 'Dark Triad" or a "Cluster B" Personality Disorder leads to an unproductive kind of highly inaccurate criticism.

You don't need amateurs or (in this specific medial context) ignorant people telling you things you already know, but with a strongly negative spin.

There's an AF member with ASPD who posts here sometimes. It might be worth searching the forum for "ASPD" (I think he's used that acronym).

Also take a look at YouTube videos by a guy named James Fallon.
He's a "Pro-social psychopath", which means he's got a "wetware problem" (one that shows up on a brain scan), but (like the majority of people with the innate potential for it) doesn't have any inclination to do "really bad things".

I think one of his videos explains the necessary second condition for "doing bad stuff". You might as well get it from an expert (if not Fallon, you'll find professionals via YouTube's suggestions).