Illkurok
King of Isolation
It's always been quite hard for me to explain my autism and all that it entails to people in a way that they can understand. The biggest hurdle I've encountered is people who claim to understand, yet they treat me as if it doesn't exist. They seem to think that I can go out in public without the fear of having to socialize and that I can operate just like a normal person.
I've had many people tell me that autism is just an excuse for others to be lazy or to just block out the world, which I've been accused of both as well. It's not that I don't want to be in the world and interact with it, it's just that I don't know how to fit in to a world that doesn't accommodate people with issues like I have.
A lot of family members that I haven't spoken to in years never once thought of how overloaded I could get by going to a particular location or interacting in an activity, despite my protests or suggestions. People that refuse to do those things, I cut off. I don't have the desire or the patience to have those kind of people in my life.
It's just very irritating that more people aren't open to understanding, if it doesn't interfere in their daily life, they don't care, even those that I still feel close to.
I used to try and convince myself that my issues didn't exist to fit in, but I never fit in trying to act normal just like I don't fit in acting my true self. These problems aren't just going to go away and that's one of the biggest things I wish people would realize. I'm trying so hard to keep it together every day.
I've had many people tell me that autism is just an excuse for others to be lazy or to just block out the world, which I've been accused of both as well. It's not that I don't want to be in the world and interact with it, it's just that I don't know how to fit in to a world that doesn't accommodate people with issues like I have.
A lot of family members that I haven't spoken to in years never once thought of how overloaded I could get by going to a particular location or interacting in an activity, despite my protests or suggestions. People that refuse to do those things, I cut off. I don't have the desire or the patience to have those kind of people in my life.
It's just very irritating that more people aren't open to understanding, if it doesn't interfere in their daily life, they don't care, even those that I still feel close to.
I used to try and convince myself that my issues didn't exist to fit in, but I never fit in trying to act normal just like I don't fit in acting my true self. These problems aren't just going to go away and that's one of the biggest things I wish people would realize. I'm trying so hard to keep it together every day.