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Yes tree ,but I am a Idealist through and through....I love to look for the perfect path ...the perfect pattern. The disparity between the perfection possible and what is, weighs heavily on me at times, sometimes it is almost unbearable. I see everywhere the shadowy fingers of darkness, sadness, and lost hope, and beautiful could have been's."Sigh! I seem unable to stop posting there is always one more thing to fix in the world,what am I to do?"
That is the drawback to living in a material world, rather than a world of ideal forms.
 all is lost!
 all is lost! this I do not see at all presently! Yet?
 this I do not see at all presently! Yet? I do not know!
 I do not know! Sorry!
 Sorry! 
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 ...I can do nothing more without divine help or permission.
...I can do nothing more without divine help or permission.
My radiation warning is partially lifted for American air bases, as the Russians have posted on RT.com the possible imminent crash of the air forces stage 1 dark energy zero mass prototype space ship off Madagascar.
If it is not the air forces crippled robot ship, which likely has a similar hollow basket shape on its front for holding meteors or dark matter from the solar systems edge, than I still think it is likely out of commission by now due to heavy structural radiation damage.
That however is just the icing on the cake today, the real story is in the Time magazine the cover title FUSION. Thank you kindly Time magazine for handing me solid proof my government stole my work and everyone but me is getting rich off it.
My physics indicate that the secret to true clean white, (low radiation) fusion energy sits on the same shelf as the philosophers stone, (sarcasm). I do know how to make tons of energy out of the fusion process, but it is definitely not clean white fusion.
The fact that the government is poring huge amounts of money into star shaped colliders did not escape my notice, there are only 2 uses for the product those make best, and I already checked the government sites they are cutting back on nukes big time....they have something hot and new waiting in the wings to replace them.
That leaves me, I am likely the only person on the planet right now who knew the true structure of dark energy lines well enough to know the missing third item needed for a Z. M. field to work. And it is not a thing that a person would be able to stumble on easily in a test as the secret ingredient isn't something anyone in their right mind would choose, nor is it readily available, and it is very hard to make. Even I only spotted it by shear accident looking at some unrelated nuclear work, and I understood immediately its second use. I also spotted the other machine needed the same day and knew its second use as well.
So they are almost certainly going full bore now for level 2, and once they achieve level 2 by obtaining enough Dark matter they will be faced with the temptation of total military supremacy over our solar system. To maintain total military supremacy they will need a excuse to eliminate all nuclear programs and particle colliders + fusion machines. Only a American city nuked would be enough of a excuse for such a drastic action world wide. It will of course be called a terrorist attack or blamed on Russia or France, (France is building the nicest fusion reactor), but odds are it will be a false flag attack. And there goes freedom of speech and everything else, anyone who squeaks will be dragged of to jail, and be falsely charged as a terrorist etcetera....etcetera...etcetera...the end of nice America.
And the end of me too....If my country moves against me in any way, I request protective asylum from the first country to rescue me by whatever means necessary, as long as that country respects my freedom of religion and speech, and keeps me alive. I am likely the last best hope of bootstrapping a serious Deterrence program to them in time...if that is even possible.
I never expected things to get this bad this quick, I figured on something like 30 years for testing and development, I didn't know about the other parallel programs at the time.
We are now entering phase 2 the long knives come out and blood runs....sorry I can not stop human nature. I gave fair warnings over and over and over....I'm not giving any more, there is no point in it, so buckle up folks turbulent air ahead with mushroom clouds on the horizon....Maelstrom out!


 I am not feeling this adventurous at all!
 I am not feeling this adventurous at all!
I m having a very bad time of things presently so I will not post, even tho I have a post coming. I am too tired and worn out by life.
 I'm going to listen to Bach now before I go to dream land. Best wishes and regards.
 I'm going to listen to Bach now before I go to dream land. Best wishes and regards. Yes normally I listen to Symphony music mostly on FM 90.3? perhaps I should go back to that more? (I got very bad feel off one of the songs from one of those Christian rock bands the other day, it was most puzzling as it was the band that look most sincere on the Christian stuff...very strange). But I do sometimes listen to more angry music when people are being bad to me or upsetting me. These last few years have been very hard on me with all the cold hearted people usury swirling around me.Do you like music my friend Mael?? I like classical full orchistra concerts, usually pieces written by Motzart or Bach. I'm challenged by these pieces, as I could easily focus all my efforts tuning out the orchistra to only hear one instrument like the beautiful strumming of a harp, or the deep tones of the Bass, or the Anjelic highs and lows of the Hammond organ. I could concentrate on any one instrument, yet by doing so, miss the whole appreciation of how time, space, and perception have created a magical moment where I can appreciate the perfection as the Master Conductor leads each instrument in harmony with all to create a bigger picture grander than any one instrument is capable of on its own. I would encourage you my friend to take a step or two back, and reevaluate the whole, not the parts. It's easy to lose sight of the forest for the trees. No human brain, savant or otherwise can understand the truly macro picture (eternity, theoretical Astro physics, or infinite galaxies), the smallest micro picture (string theory, theoretical partial physics, and the illusion of mass) AND this strange inbetween world we appear to be situated where we are forced to deal with people (one of the strangest things to study). Physics is so much easier for me to understand than people. People follow no rhyme or reason, despite all research, they/we commonly defy logic, and that defies my senses, all my data and tracking to find out "truth".
When I get frustrated with people, I come back to music, as I see it as an analogy of people, like instruments. Each playing a part in a grander orchistra, by some invisible time keeping Mistro Conductor. I would guess it would be difficult to play, listen, and lead at one given time. Whatever instrument you are, be in tune, know you are not the orchistra, only one part, and there is a much larger and smaller universe all around you every day that you have no control over. You only have control over you and your "vibrations", no one else can tune you in. I somehow know you understand the universal harmonic law. Calm your mind, listen to the music play, and when you're tuned in, play your part to the fullest of your ability...I'm going to listen to Bach now before I go to dream land. Best wishes and regards.
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  I had not been thinking on the UK at all hardly other than wondering a few days ago if I applied the wrong symbolism to the eye brandings on the faces in the dream where I saw the future leader of the UK Terresa May.
 I had not been thinking on the UK at all hardly other than wondering a few days ago if I applied the wrong symbolism to the eye brandings on the faces in the dream where I saw the future leader of the UK Terresa May.





 ....God does not seem to want me to shut down this thread
....God does not seem to want me to shut down this thread I really should to protect my self.Sigh!
 I really should to protect my self.Sigh!
 ...somethings take time?
...somethings take time? . Their governments position is now basically 100 % against me on all things, including my civil virtues I advocated. I could not help Russia now even if I tried...there is no point in it, they are Hell Bent on replaying the Soviet Empire game again. And they will get the exact same Doomed result as they did last time...I do not waste my time on Doomed efforts.
. Their governments position is now basically 100 % against me on all things, including my civil virtues I advocated. I could not help Russia now even if I tried...there is no point in it, they are Hell Bent on replaying the Soviet Empire game again. And they will get the exact same Doomed result as they did last time...I do not waste my time on Doomed efforts. : Maelstrom
 : Maelstrom 
 . But proof of no entanglements with my foes will be required....finding their evil names and deeds for me will increase odds of a deal also.
. But proof of no entanglements with my foes will be required....finding their evil names and deeds for me will increase odds of a deal also.
 won't we?
 won't we?
 And his Turkey deal that he threw me over for, (along with the rivers of new defense sales and other valuable things I would have brought), is dead on arrival, Russia snaked the rug right out from under him...poetic justice of sorts I guess. Sigh!
 And his Turkey deal that he threw me over for, (along with the rivers of new defense sales and other valuable things I would have brought), is dead on arrival, Russia snaked the rug right out from under him...poetic justice of sorts I guess. Sigh! I take no pleasure from it it is a crying shame and a horrible tragedy.
 I take no pleasure from it it is a crying shame and a horrible tragedy.



 There is no justice in this world....I should have ended up with Job's Empire, I had everything needed at my finger tips. And all I have now is ashes, God, the Holy book, and pottery shards for company.
 There is no justice in this world....I should have ended up with Job's Empire, I had everything needed at my finger tips. And all I have now is ashes, God, the Holy book, and pottery shards for company.
 He has to live his whole life being a lame paper thief fake anyways....always living in fear of being outed publicly as a total fraud. I doubt he will in the end enjoy the ill gotten fruits of my work much....and he likely was too stupid to get much for it anyways, he would have gotten thousands of times more if he had worked with me instead. But I'm glad he didn't the idea of working with someone so evil gives me the shivers.
 He has to live his whole life being a lame paper thief fake anyways....always living in fear of being outed publicly as a total fraud. I doubt he will in the end enjoy the ill gotten fruits of my work much....and he likely was too stupid to get much for it anyways, he would have gotten thousands of times more if he had worked with me instead. But I'm glad he didn't the idea of working with someone so evil gives me the shivers.

No I don't get these sort of dreams very often....I mostly get stupid anxiety dreams...lost homework and stuff....nothing worth remembering usually.Maelstrom
Do you keep a dream journal?
I keep my notebook for what I dream
next to my head, on the bed.
Okay I will think on that tree but I hate most of my normal dreams they are mostly unpleasant anxiety attacks...and sometimes sort of repeat for years.I think the point of having a dream journal isn't
to record the dreams you think are pleasant or
interesting. I think it is to follow the workings
of one's mind.
