kbb0
Well-Known Member
Hi everybody. I just had a revelation about my brain today and I thought I'd share it here since other people on the spectrum might be struggling with this too. I'm not the most emotionally aware person (at least when it comes to myself) so maybe you guys will think this is obvious.
I was riding my bike on the street (where I was riding you can get a ticket for riding on the sidewalk. I also make sure to stay as close to the parked cars as possible to make it easy for drivers to get past me) and some guy started yelling obscenities at me through his window. Normally in situations like these I am at an absolute loss for words. I don't know what to say, all I know is that I don't feel good. But since this has happened to me before, I actually had a response. I yelled "I have to ride in the street asshole!" and on the rest of my ride to work I would think about what had just happened but I didn't feel angry or upset or gross like I usually would. I felt fine and I wasn't ruminating.
Is this what it feels like for people who are able to defend themselves and know how to respond to these types of situations? I always get either extremely angry and defensive, or extremely depressed when I feel like I'm being attacked or belittled or someone is judging me.
Now I am just confused how to apply this new information to make my life easier
I was riding my bike on the street (where I was riding you can get a ticket for riding on the sidewalk. I also make sure to stay as close to the parked cars as possible to make it easy for drivers to get past me) and some guy started yelling obscenities at me through his window. Normally in situations like these I am at an absolute loss for words. I don't know what to say, all I know is that I don't feel good. But since this has happened to me before, I actually had a response. I yelled "I have to ride in the street asshole!" and on the rest of my ride to work I would think about what had just happened but I didn't feel angry or upset or gross like I usually would. I felt fine and I wasn't ruminating.
Is this what it feels like for people who are able to defend themselves and know how to respond to these types of situations? I always get either extremely angry and defensive, or extremely depressed when I feel like I'm being attacked or belittled or someone is judging me.
Now I am just confused how to apply this new information to make my life easier