Mad
New Member
I’ve been occasionally browsing this forum for a little while now. I feel comfortable enough to post now, I suppose. I’m hoping the long welcome at the top of the page disappears after I do.
My name is Madelon. I am a 33 year old female currently living in Wisconsin. I would love to hear what comes to people minds when I mention Wisconsin. It’s quite the stereotypical place like in the movies.
I am a Registered Nurse by trade, currently working in the field of organ donation. I worked as a critical care nurse in a burn ICU until late 2021. I loved it but definitely had my social struggles. Especially dealing with families and care team rounds. Being directly responsible for keeping someone alive is stressful as well, obviously. Then COVID threw all hospitals into a panic. There was a lot of uncertainty and fear among all staff. Add mistreatment, unsafe work environments, and under compensation... I could go on forever.
My current position is remote and I work in a office. My position coordinates every aspect of organ donation from start to finish. It’s A LOT. I’m away from the stress of bedside nursing, but now there is a whole new social stress of adjusting to office life. I’ve never worked in an office before. I feel like I’m in school again. Things change often and the numerous job resources we have are overwhelming and hard for me to navigate. AND since I work remotely I’m obviously on the phone all day. I’ve adjusted to this better than I thought I would though. I have two coworkers currently that were my fellow ICU friends before, so that has helped things a lot. I work night shift (always have. Less people!) so I don’t have to see many office people but anytime I might it makes me incredibly anxious. It takes me time to get to know new people and more than two people at once is overwhelming. I mask amazingly and get through it, but that doesn’t negate the internal feelings.
This was long. I figured I’d just let myself write. I’m an avid journaler. It’s how I cope with life.
I used to do pretty much all of my socialization in online forums when I was a teenager. All animal related, as I am ever the animals enthusiast.
I stopped socializing on forums when I left high school and ditched social media about 8 years ago.
Writing on here is already causing me some anxiety but I’m sitting with it and pushing the post button regardless.
Autism has ran through my mind occasionally over the years but I’d never seriously considered it until a new friend’s husband was recently diagnosed. I’ve always had an extreme interest in psychology and brain science so I did some further research into adult diagnosis. There is so much new info coming out related to females on the autism spectrum. It’s been mind altering to see myself so clearly in what I read. It’s an odd feeling of relief.
It’s thrown me onto a new path of self discovery. I’ve only told 3 people so far. My wife, one close friend, and my new therapist. And now you all.
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My name is Madelon. I am a 33 year old female currently living in Wisconsin. I would love to hear what comes to people minds when I mention Wisconsin. It’s quite the stereotypical place like in the movies.
I am a Registered Nurse by trade, currently working in the field of organ donation. I worked as a critical care nurse in a burn ICU until late 2021. I loved it but definitely had my social struggles. Especially dealing with families and care team rounds. Being directly responsible for keeping someone alive is stressful as well, obviously. Then COVID threw all hospitals into a panic. There was a lot of uncertainty and fear among all staff. Add mistreatment, unsafe work environments, and under compensation... I could go on forever.
My current position is remote and I work in a office. My position coordinates every aspect of organ donation from start to finish. It’s A LOT. I’m away from the stress of bedside nursing, but now there is a whole new social stress of adjusting to office life. I’ve never worked in an office before. I feel like I’m in school again. Things change often and the numerous job resources we have are overwhelming and hard for me to navigate. AND since I work remotely I’m obviously on the phone all day. I’ve adjusted to this better than I thought I would though. I have two coworkers currently that were my fellow ICU friends before, so that has helped things a lot. I work night shift (always have. Less people!) so I don’t have to see many office people but anytime I might it makes me incredibly anxious. It takes me time to get to know new people and more than two people at once is overwhelming. I mask amazingly and get through it, but that doesn’t negate the internal feelings.
This was long. I figured I’d just let myself write. I’m an avid journaler. It’s how I cope with life.
I used to do pretty much all of my socialization in online forums when I was a teenager. All animal related, as I am ever the animals enthusiast.
I stopped socializing on forums when I left high school and ditched social media about 8 years ago.
Writing on here is already causing me some anxiety but I’m sitting with it and pushing the post button regardless.
Autism has ran through my mind occasionally over the years but I’d never seriously considered it until a new friend’s husband was recently diagnosed. I’ve always had an extreme interest in psychology and brain science so I did some further research into adult diagnosis. There is so much new info coming out related to females on the autism spectrum. It’s been mind altering to see myself so clearly in what I read. It’s an odd feeling of relief.
It’s thrown me onto a new path of self discovery. I’ve only told 3 people so far. My wife, one close friend, and my new therapist. And now you all.
Post.