Less than a year, and it was a long-distance thing, but we saw each other every now and then. I kind of loved her, the first for whom I really felt something, and she screwed me over so badly. also screwed my friendship, (out of all people, she hooked up with my friend and I have a minimum of friends, so it's extra painful for me, you don't do these sorts of things to me), which I have been persistent enough to keep just to prove her a point.
but I have never actually forgiven my "friend", I just pretended not to care about it, but will never trust her again as I do believe she's full of ****. I do believe my romantic bondings to be sacred in a way (because most of the time I don't feel anything, and when I do, it means a lot) and she's probably unsuspecting, but a part of me really hates her for going for my first love, thinking it's okay. weird, I know. I don't know what I'm trying to prove anymore, but destroying my "friendship" right now - with this excuse would look kind of childish, because enough time has passed. But the trust is long gone.
I restrained from active looking ever since. some strange things happened of course... don't really know.
never really had much in terms of relationships. it's a bit difficult for me to imagine myself in a healthy, "normal" relationship. :geek: