I hope you feel better about yourself soon.
Welcome to Autism Forums, a friendly forum to discuss Aspergers Syndrome, Autism, High Functioning Autism and related conditions.
Your voice is missing! You will need to register to get access to the following site features:We hope to see you as a part of our community soon! Please also check us out @ https://www.twitter.com/aspiescentral
i definitely understand where you're coming from, but for me one of the reasons i like to be by myself is that i have had bad experiences with people in the past. i haven't had any real life friends in years. yes, there are times when i wish i could be around people (mostly autistics). i have nothing against NTs, its just that i don't like the negative attitude or ableist like mannerisms that some of them give to us autistics. i do wish that people would stop looking at us suspiciously when it comes to stimming and the like. and another thing, I'm awfully sorry about you and your breakup. i wish you nothing but the best!!!
You have given me something to think about. These last few weeks I have been thinking about counseling.you need to see a therapist !this isn’t just autism ,it is autism and anxiety , go to the resources section on this forum and look at suicide hotline’s ,talk !to somebody on one of them .
Therapy isn’t always necessary. I feel this way most of the time in public and know it’s because I don’t have anyone with me for company. If I had company, (which is rare) I wouldn’t think as much about those around me than if I was alone in my head. Loneliness can have us overthinking which can lead to anxiety issues.
Thank you for saying something about my breakup.
I have two friends left. They are not autistic but still very good friends. When I do not have them I will be alone. I can be alone quite a lot and it is okay but I have not been around other autistic people enough, I need that feeling of being normal, of home. It is exhausting being different and being judged everyday by NTs who think I am strange. Last week my doctor, my GP, said during my appointment that I am the strangest person she has ever met in her life. That hurt me deeply and I do not think she had the right to speak to me that way. She is very nice and friendly with me, also very honest and until now that has been a good thing but I think she should have kept that thought to herself. I am not strange. I make sense if you understand things the way I do.
This is a silly example but for years all my NT friends were in terrible debt, buying things they didn't really care about or need and continuing to buy things even when they knew that had too much debt. It worried them but they didn't stop spending. I on the otherhand had no debt. I didn't care about fashion or traveling or concerts and I didn't drink alcohol at bars so I didn't spend the money they did. But people say I am the strange one.
Just now I do not feel like trying to understand them or making them understand me. I want to be with my own people where I do not have to explain. Aspies, for the most part, make sense to other aspies. I want that for a while.
I am sorry for the bad experiences you have had. I think that may be true for most of us. It is for me. It is my fault that I do not socialize well and seem to upset people but it is not something I can change unless I follow a script and memorize rules of behaviour. Then I am not being honest and I am working hard at something all the time, which is tiring and it is all so I can fit in better with people I do not really understand or can share things with.
over thinking is just thinking too much may I ask is English your first language ?I do not understand the last sentence you wrote. You wrote it clearly and I know it makes sense but I still can't understand it. It is a limitation I am having. I do not know how loneliness can lead to overthinking. They must be related somehow but I cannot make that connection just now. Thank you for the interesting thought.
over thinking is just thinking too much may I ask is English your first language ?
do you find it easier to communicate in pictures or emojis or gifs .The latter works for me as the movement seems to stimulate communication .Yes you may. English is my first language.
do you find it easier to communicate in pictures or emojis or gifs .The latter works for me as the movement seems to stimulate communication .
I hope you feel better about yourself soon.
You're welcome. I'm glad you are progressing.Thank you. I want to apologize for not knowing earlier you had written to me. It is difficult for me to follow what is happening in the thread in real time.
I think I may be feeling a little better. It is nice to talk with my aspie people here like yourself. Right now it feels like one day at a time while I sort out my feelings.
it doesn’t help as much as I may be conveying to you just slightly moreThank you for asking. No, I do not. I do best with words. I am mostly confused when people use gifs and I cannot understand emojis at all except for the obvious ones like smiley face. I thought they might be like pictographs hieroglyphs but very confusing. When I see them I do not try to decipher them anymore.
That is good you found something that helps you.
It is not your fault.It is my fault that I do not socialize well and seem to upset people