LadyS
One eye permanently raised it seems...
Hi,
I was recently diagnosed this past year with high-functioning ASD. I've long suspected that there was something different about me since I was young for so many reasons. I grew up in South Asian culture, which unfortunately still is pretty taboo when it comes to mental health so it was even more difficult because with our super large families and high societal expectations, I could never "fit in" or meet the high social demands. I have a brother who is suspected to also have ASD, although he is very much in denial still and refuses to get diagnosed, again due to how our culture tormented us for being "different" when we were younger. Although we have lots of family for financial and physical support, we've never had much emotional support as they were pretty much 'ashamed' of us and still are.
I'm still learning and coming to terms with my diagnosis because as an Asian woman, unfortunately a lot of the burden of the family pride rests on me and my performance as a wife, mother, relative, etc. But a big part of me is very much relieved to finally have answers to my 'differentness' and now I can finally move forward with a new outlook. I still struggle everyday with associated depression and social anxiety. It's also hard for me to find motivation to anything mundane and obligatory. I've also realized that masking my whole life has exhausted me and probably contributes to my issues above.
My interests include music, movies (esp documentaries), a history buff, outdoor hiking and traveling (when possible), animals, board games, some arts and crafts, jigsaw puzzles, anything chocolate, 90's nostalgia and anything to do with space and astronomy. Some dancing, astrology and paranormal studies and life mysteries. I am also pretty fascinated with the human condition, what makes people tick and their underlying personality traits, motivations and genetic tendencies. I feel like I'm pretty intuitive and can read people well, mostly due to my quiet observing nature. I dislike conflict very much, but also feel strongly about fairness and justice, and usually able to see all sides of an argument. In the end I feel I'm just trying to get through this life to the next, because as hard as I try, I just feel like an alien on another planet.
But I'm happy to join and meet people who I can FINALLY relate to and am hoping to learn much more from everyone else. If you made it this far, thank you for reading my LONG intro lol. Cheers and howdy from me!
I was recently diagnosed this past year with high-functioning ASD. I've long suspected that there was something different about me since I was young for so many reasons. I grew up in South Asian culture, which unfortunately still is pretty taboo when it comes to mental health so it was even more difficult because with our super large families and high societal expectations, I could never "fit in" or meet the high social demands. I have a brother who is suspected to also have ASD, although he is very much in denial still and refuses to get diagnosed, again due to how our culture tormented us for being "different" when we were younger. Although we have lots of family for financial and physical support, we've never had much emotional support as they were pretty much 'ashamed' of us and still are.
I'm still learning and coming to terms with my diagnosis because as an Asian woman, unfortunately a lot of the burden of the family pride rests on me and my performance as a wife, mother, relative, etc. But a big part of me is very much relieved to finally have answers to my 'differentness' and now I can finally move forward with a new outlook. I still struggle everyday with associated depression and social anxiety. It's also hard for me to find motivation to anything mundane and obligatory. I've also realized that masking my whole life has exhausted me and probably contributes to my issues above.
My interests include music, movies (esp documentaries), a history buff, outdoor hiking and traveling (when possible), animals, board games, some arts and crafts, jigsaw puzzles, anything chocolate, 90's nostalgia and anything to do with space and astronomy. Some dancing, astrology and paranormal studies and life mysteries. I am also pretty fascinated with the human condition, what makes people tick and their underlying personality traits, motivations and genetic tendencies. I feel like I'm pretty intuitive and can read people well, mostly due to my quiet observing nature. I dislike conflict very much, but also feel strongly about fairness and justice, and usually able to see all sides of an argument. In the end I feel I'm just trying to get through this life to the next, because as hard as I try, I just feel like an alien on another planet.
But I'm happy to join and meet people who I can FINALLY relate to and am hoping to learn much more from everyone else. If you made it this far, thank you for reading my LONG intro lol. Cheers and howdy from me!
Which country are you from?
